#letmerant

"supporting for a long time" - accounts were created, like, end of last year?

ironic is,

if you don't bother listening to their 🎵 why bother about dreams and wishes?

ie.

if you've listened, you'll know what they're wishing for, right?

luckily, i’ve been blessed with the belief that i am nothing special. i’ve never, in my entire life, believed i was worth more than others or that i had a special talent. nothing was ever granted to me, and i never took anything for granted. it’s just the way i was raised. i don’t need to go back in time and say “oh i remember my father never told me i was special.. every time i did something remarkable, he always said he could do better or that he had already done better...” because that STILL HAPPENS. at 22.

the only thing i’ve ever been slightly good at is speaking english, which is not even that great of a talent, is it?

but reader, you might ask yourself why the fck am i doing this gigantic and boring premise... well,

people think i’m this superior human being that does nothing and gets things. and the thing that hurts me the most is that those people are my FRIENDS. people that have known me since forever and that should know that i’ve worked my ass off for everything i have. it honestly gives me THE CHILLS. and no, not the good kinda chills. it really saddens me how inconsiderate people can be. they just think everything i do is SOOO EASY, and that i can get the best grade always because IT JUST HAPPENS and that it’s a given. it’s not a given.

maybe the don’t know the crazy pressure of family expectations.

maybe they don’t know the pressure of always being so perfect, so pristine.

maybe they don’t know how much i wanna scream that my life, although easier than others, is NOT EASY.

i wish they could live in my head for a day.