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Very Gladly omg

he’s both an elf and has magic which are pretty rare in his world so he’s Super Special but makes up for that by being too apathetic and jaded to do anything with anything. he almost exclusively uses his pretty rad magic to make people believe he’s super talented with just about any instrument, when actually he’s just about competent with a couple and actually good at a few. these rad rad skills are used to make people buy him drinks and let him sleep in places. he’s doing good don’t worry about it

he lost an eye as a child and wears a fuckin red like. bandana over the missing one, which is almost certainly highly impractical but he doesn’t like actual eyepatches. it’s fine. he also used to be a soldier before a pretty basic mission (wrong word but uh) went Way Wrong and he just about managed to survive, unlike the rest of his squad, so he deserted. keeps wearing his uniform jacket tho?? don’t worry about it

:v

orange: 

what makes you feel warm inside? 

naps, clothes + sheets fresh out of the dryer, good kisses, having the windows open when it rains

what’s your favorite halloween tradition?

hot cider! trick or treating, coming home andwatching halloween movies (like halloweentown and hocus pocus) and handing out candy, there’s candles

what’s the last thing you learned? 

quakers are called quakers because they “trembled at god’s hand” 

when’s the last time you felt obsessed? 

literally right now it’s awful and i want it to stoppppp but im hardcore feelin limerence for this Big Weeb and it’s eating me alive

what’s your favorite article of clothing?

the opossum sweater u gave me idk what id do w/o it

blue: 

what do you do when you’re sad?

cry and lay on my bed and maybe go for a walk if im rly feelin it. sometimes if im in Self Care Mode i’ll take a shower or bath and make some tea maybe watch a disney movie or big fish or something

what are some things you do when you can’t sleep? 

usually i get high to solve this but when that doesn’t work i usually just toss and turn and try not to look at my phone but then end up messing around on it anyway. it hasn’t happened in a long time bc usually gettin high does the trick (or like. melatonin/zzzquil), but i think if it happened again id probably put on a show and force myself not to look at my phone bc usually i get rly tired if i just watch a show? usually when i can’t sleep it’s bc im cold so i turn on my electric blanket :0

what was the best (non-romantic) night you’ve had?

 i have the worst memory and i can’t think of a specific one but like. some contenders include the halloween dance @ center my sophomore year, new years eve w u n marjorie when it became 2014, recently staying up until 4am w miranda and @passed-through-fire

what kind of covers do you have on your bed? 

I have a down comforter covered by that ikea botanical illustration duvet cover that everyone has. sometimes i sleep w/ an electrical blanket and that’s nice 

who is the last person you told a secret to?

idk what constitutes a secret but like. i basically said one in this post and then im probably gonna pm u abt it more and then it’ll be u but i think at this VERY MOMENT it was telling @mai-amare about something petty i did

thanks babe ilysm!!

second try because tumblr ate my first answer!

fic ask game!

if it wasn't obvious i like diluc it will be soon

12. Memorable Beginning

repeating fics here but your heart; a doorway because that opener on the first chapter “Yes. Many people died in this house,” Al-Haitham confirms. “Some of them are even buried on the land.” And then, almost like an afterthought, he answers, “It is my house.” hooked me so hard into it and had me spamming the fic to everyone i knew.

the angel's share cat also got me because i thought it was incredible that diluc named things after the month he got them he's just like me fr. little did i know the series would emotionally crush me.

18. Fic(s) that keep you up at night (Either reading or thinking about)

ough. OUGHSFG. there's a lot and they tend to be darker fics so mind the tags, but--

so Grow up, Soldier has got to be one of my favorite diluc pain + bad parent crepus fics (i like crepus ok just,,, i like when fanfiction explores other things too) like. the entire time i was reading it (from like 2 to 6am i could not put it down) i was banging my table crying because every bit of it was stabbing me in the heart. 10/10 would read again it haunts me everywhere

"He was remade to be admired, not loved." (diluc and mizuki but mostly diluc going through it) i read like, a few hours ago, but its description was so violent and visceral (reminded me of bird in the hand (diluc and columbina)) and i just know i'll be thinking about it for a good while

Hidden States of Matter (haikaveh) has such an exhilarating ending i struggled to breathe when i read it at first because reading desperation chokes me internally

Conversations is still updating but i??? can't fucking believe???? that apparently the author watched my animatic????? god i love so many of HAL_berd's fics but this one specifically grips me so hard with crepus and kaeya's dynamic, i am so engrossed in their paranoia and i am always down for morally gray crepus.

18. Fic(s) you would/have forced someone else to read

ok so i have tried to force my friends to read many fics and so far @justheblueberry has read a few and reacted to them so i can only say that

recognize, embrace, and believe him has to be one of my favorite kaeya diluc reconciliation fics because i feel so VINDICATED by it because they aren't just compelling because they're brothers/soulmates/lovers/some secret third thing but because

“You’re all I have left,” he says helplessly. “You’re all I have left, you can’t—you can’t leave me, too. Please. Please don’t leave me again. I’m begging you. Not again.” Diluc wraps his arms around him as tightly as he can, and Kaeya brings his spare hand up to cradle the back of his head and pull him close. “I’m sorry,” Diluc whispers, as a spot of warmth blooms against his shoulder. “I’m sorry. I don’t—I don’t want to leave you all alone. But I won’t—I won’t kill you.” He lets out a strangled laugh. “I wouldn’t be able to live with myself. I’d…I’d join you in seconds. You know that.”

THEY LOVE EACH OTHER IN SUCH DESTRUCTIVE WAYS. THAT'S THE IMPORTANT PART OF IT. (this is going to get a bit awkward but) i am sick and tired of people using familial ties to explain why they care about each other. it's a very simple example of show vs tell where you can tell me they're brothers, but you're not convincing me by showing how much they actually care. hell, 50% of the fanbase is convinced they still 100% hate each other even though it's been like five fucking years. i just personally don't like it when i read "you're my brother, i love you" (keith kogane style) because WHERE WAS ALL THAT LOVE BEFORE THEN HUH. i went on a rant about this in some tags before but basically, i've read my fair share of kaeya angst and it has compelled me to make my own out of spite.

they're messy, they're complicated, and if there was anything a kaeya diluc reconciliation fic didn't need, it's diluc hugging kaeya and magically fixing everything with "you'll always be my brother" without any fucking growth beforehand.

i also forced blueberry to read your heart; a doorway i've talked about this like three times now. heartslogos youuuu *shakes fist*

and Life Lessons because collei <3

northbound & reaching is a kaeluc magic fic and i just really loved the imagery and their dynamic together, kaeya is so forlorn and lost and aughahrhh

particles in motion ahahAHAHHA yeah kaveh is so relatable im actually basically him right now in that fic except i dont have anyone who could help me nor am i getting any validation for my skills like he does.

one lifetime too short absolutely, join me on the haikaveh modern au 10 year journey where kaveh has been married to someone who's not alhaitham and had an entire child in the meantime

another name for a companion haikaveh and dottotham fascinating character studies, get into this

the hands of god nahida character study and also THE nahida character study. i spent several days reading and digesting this and i hope someone else will too.