#learningtocope

So updates will be a bit slower as I try to write more.

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“Learning how to cope with self-defeating emotions as well as beliefs will increase your happiness as a person. If you truly want to reduce the amount of negative emotions in your life, then use logic and believe in two things. You control your thoughts; also, your thoughts control your emotions. Therefore, logic says; “You control how you feel.” Am I right?” ~ Gino DiCaprio

     https://www.amazon.com/Gino-DiCaprio/e/B005AXD51S

When the film in your screening relates totally to your heartbreaking family situation... why tho? 

Lecturer also lied to make a point and i love that <3

Real films, real cinemas, real snacks

Now what I haven’t mentioned yet is that I’ve ridden horses for about 18yrs.. For 16.5yrs of those, until May this year I was lucky enough to have owned an awesome little horse, we’ll call him F for now… F came into my life when I was about 12… and embedded himself into my personality and was for all intents and purposes my life long best friend.. every little tiff with a friend… he lifted my spirits…. every day of exam stress was blown away by a good gallop across an open field… he was the first to know when I first fancied a boy (who is now my lovely husband!) He was one of the stars of the show on our wedding day and had basically been there at every key moment of my existence throughout my late childhood,teenage years and my 20’s (I’m 29 now). So having had to make the decision that his body was failing him and being told by the vet that one of the kindest things I could do was put him to sleep was understandably devastating to me. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done watching him take his final breath but it was a peaceful and happy moment looking back knowing he was no longer suffering (albeit with a smile on his face bless him) and he looked stunning having one last run around oblivious to his fate even as the vet arrived, memories (and video clips) I will treasure forever. X Having lost F I had lots of lovely friends offer me the chance to ride which I took… it was after all my go to place in times of stress and hardship… but if anyone who has owned and lost an animal or lost a loved one knows… no matter how lovely spending time with another of the same species is… it’s just not the same and boy have I missed having him as my go to stress reliever during this infertility crap…. 5.5 months on and I’ve taken a break from the saddle… it’s felt like the right thing to do for me and if I’m being honest… I couldn’t process anything more in my full to overflowing brain… Infertility stress, and grieving my equine best friend and not dropping the ball at work all while attempting to not be a completely angry ball of tears to live with has been quite enough… But today… on a whim I’ve booked myself (and my best friend) a Polo lesson… ..and although at 3am anxiety tried to convince me it was a mistake I’ve woken up feeling quite excited to feel the rush from being onboard again…