#learning is hard

Why is learning? What the heck is this tomfoolery?

Like, there’s the thing I’m copying, and then there’s my nonsense.

This is so sweet anon, but I sadly don't yet because I'm developing my art skill along with these fellas — I'm usually just a fanfic writer!

But I know he's trapezoid-ish.. While Poseidon is more triangular... Zeus is definitely broader in my mind.

He's also got sharp talon-like claws and a bull tail, and that's kind of all I've got— sorry! Writing is a lot easier because I can keep it just vague enough to work ha ha.

Me on the ops channel: I’m good, I’m good, I’m good, why does my head hurt, that was dumb, I recovered, I’m good, I’m good, okay I’m lost, trainer halp!, I’m good, this is frustrating, how much longer …

Me on the info channel: pfft. I got this.

Mr Classroom at the end of the day: You’re doing really well, all you need is more ops time. You could clear training in 4-6 weeks. You’re exactly where we expected you to be.* Ask for more ops time, busier times, and challenge yourself.

* I’m not behind anymore?! 😮‍💨

ANYWAY. I am not having fun on ops. It’s frustrating all of the time. AND. I recognize this as part of the learning process now. Same thing happened on the info channel. So I’m going to ask for more ops time, take all my criticism with a good attitude, make my mistakes, learn from them, and get patched.

Background:

I’ve been learning to play the bass guitar for a little over a year now. I just wanted something creative to add to my mental health toolbox and learning a new skill and focusing on that can be helpful.

Had a lesson with my teacher today. He told me I’m doing well and taught me new exercises. Usual stuff.

2 hours later he emails me, drops me as a student because I’m not progressing fast enough.

I’ve never been a fast learner. I’ve also been very clear with him about the specific skills that I’ve struggled with.

I think what upsets me most is that he didn’t even tell me during my lesson. I thought I was doing well because he gave me no indication that there was something wrong with my learning speed.

I don’t want to stop learning but this just picks at an old wound that keeps reopening. Reminds me too much of the times where coaches or teachers told me I wasn’t good enough and each time was just a major blow to my low self esteem and frequently resulted in me quitting.

Day one of trying to figure out basic walk cycles

This is so much harder than animating hot women or silly silly weirdos

Geez I am a 21 year old trying to animate stuff…

LETS GO NEVER TOO OLD TO GET GOOD!!!

Never surrender never yeild (lol)