In Another Life

Rating: T

Characters: Draco Malfoy/Hermione Granger

Summary: A change to the events that happened at Malfoy Manor.

Draco struggles watching Hermione being tortured by his aunt. A mistake is made and the consequences are life altering.

Status: Complete

Rating: M

Characters: Draco Malfoy/Hermione Granger, Hermione Granger/Ron Weasley

Summary: Hermione Granger-Malfoy has a secret. After keeping it from her husband for three months, it is time to come clean. But to do that, involves opening old wounds, and cutting new ones into an already damaged area.

Status: Complete

Me when I sit down to actually write it

I absolutely LOVED Clean and up to about the 80% mark, I liked Marked. I just… I have mixed feelings so beware spoilers ahead…

Background:

I’ve been learning to play the bass guitar for a little over a year now. I just wanted something creative to add to my mental health toolbox and learning a new skill and focusing on that can be helpful.

Had a lesson with my teacher today. He told me I’m doing well and taught me new exercises. Usual stuff.

2 hours later he emails me, drops me as a student because I’m not progressing fast enough.

I’ve never been a fast learner. I’ve also been very clear with him about the specific skills that I’ve struggled with.

I think what upsets me most is that he didn’t even tell me during my lesson. I thought I was doing well because he gave me no indication that there was something wrong with my learning speed.

I don’t want to stop learning but this just picks at an old wound that keeps reopening. Reminds me too much of the times where coaches or teachers told me I wasn’t good enough and each time was just a major blow to my low self esteem and frequently resulted in me quitting.

Just finished this and I’m an emotional wreck.

Last two weeks I’ve just been consuming these fanfics like a monster and the sheer quantity of stories that just tear out your heart, stomp on it, and cast incendio followed by bombarda maxima makes me question the collective mental health of everyone. Are we all really that masochistic that we enjoy all this hurt?