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- Silco is attracted to minds, not bodies. He loves your body because it's the one you live in, and he loves every part of you. That being said, he's a very attentive person, and if he notices that there's something you're insecure about, he makes a point to compliment it more.

- you don't like that feature? Well he thinks it's very charming. After all, you wouldn't be you without it, and it adds so much to your character.

- you don't like that you're chubby? He thinks it's a very pretty trait, for every part of you to be unapologetic in the shape and space it takes, the way you seem to melt in his hold.

- you don't like that you're skinny? Well, so is he, and he thinks it's a very elegant trait, to appear so delicate while holding strength in your bones.

- your height suits you perfectly, the way you wear your hair is divine, your stretch marks show your determination, your scars are like brushstrokes that paint your life story. No matter the problem, he has a full list of reasons that it only makes him love you more.

- Silco is also not the most self-loving person. He does what he can to be happy with his appearance by keeping his hair neat, wearing well-fitting clothes, keeping a good skincare routine. But when attention is drawn to his looks, he clams up with the reminder that he is always being perceived, and not always in the way he wants to be.

- he makes sure to treat you with the same consideration. If you're trying to find the best outfit, or if you're trying to get your hair or makeup just right, he makes sure to be honest with you while also considering how you want to look; the most important thing to him is that you are happy with the results.

- as much as he wishes reassurances and self acceptance were the only forces to worry about, there will outside input to set things awry. People are so quick to judge based on appearance, and though Silco's reputation often helps people hold their tongues, there's bound to be some that are too dense or too arrogant to pay any mind to the misfortune their words may invite into their lives.

- whenever someone comments on your physicalities, he's quick to shut them down, and he does his best to ease any of your insecurities that may have been pulled up by the remarks. He reminds you that no opinion matters as much as your own and assures you that he still loves that feature, all with a hand on your back to keep you grounded.

- he does the same for himself whenever someone may comment on his appearance; it would be hypocritical and counterproductive not to, he says. His disregard and mockery for the passing comments of strangers also helps lighten the mood; making fun of obnoxious people behind their backs has always been a hobby of Silco's, and he is very good at it.

- he likes to buy clothes that compliment your natural colours and features to help enhance your self image. He hopes that, if he gives you the right frame, you might learn to love the picture. He does extensive research on fashion, what garments fit which bodies, which colours go well together, and spends hours sorting through clothes and asking employees for advice so that he knows he's getting you the perfect outfit.

- you don't have to wear it out if you don't want to, he assures you, I just want to help you see yourself in the same light that I do, with love and admiration. He worries as though he isn't excellent at buying you gifts; at least one of the things he brought you is bound to be used in future outfits.

- his charming and personal compliments help you both with your insecurities, especially the ones you share, and you both help each other learn to love yourselves over time.

- when he first met you, not yet familiar with how you worked, every apology from you was like a shock from an electric fence, an unpleasant clench that kept him from getting close.

- he doesn't understand this habit of yours at first. How can he understand, when such a large part of who he is is someone who refuses to apologise for taking up space? And though he tries to see your perspective, your apologies make no sense to him.

- you're sorry for making a mess and you're sorry for cleaning someone else's space. You're sorry for getting in the way and you're sorry for being too distant. You're sorry for being overbearing and you're sorry for not caring enough. Is there anything that you're not sorry for?

- as you and Silco start spending more time together, he tries and fails to understand your apologies; they spring up in every place they could possibly be warranted, but so often, they aren't needed, so you find yourself answering the same question frequently: why are you sorry?

- the answer never comes easily. You use apologies like a shield, held up to protect you from any incoming blows that could knock you down. You can't tell the difference between a sword and a loving hand, so you block both before you're struck, and when you are asked why, you struggle to find a reason.

- eventually, he realises that your apologies are often subconscious, a muscle memory that developed to keep yourself safe. He found that these walls you had set up blocked off not just attackers, but potential allies, too. He tried so hard to show you that you were allowed to take up space, but your habits kept you just out of reach, like a snail retreating into its shell.

- Silco isn't going to let this go of this "quirk" of yours like others have. He cares too much about you and your self esteem to let you punish yourself like this. At one point, your fawning had been a valuable piece of armour, but now that you were away from danger, it was only going to weigh you down, and he wants nothing more than to show you it is worth it to be vulnerable.

- save your apologies for when you've actually done something wrong, he tells you. And believe me, you will know if you've done something to displease you.

- despite his foreboding phrasing, it does help you temper your habits. You know that you don't need to protect yourself from him, and that you're wasting your energy by holding up your shield in his presence.

- at first, it's hard to tell when he's upset, but you quickly learn how clear his anger is when it's actually there. All the signs that you once understood as hostility become clear as focus, confusion, and even affection; you can no longer mistake his furrowed brow, his tongue running along the inside of his cheek, his muttering over his desk, as anger, for you know better now. As you get better at reading him, you realise how rarely he had actually been upset at you when you felt the need to apologise.

- as you grow closer, whenever you say sorry over something inconsequential, Silco will give you this questioning look; a half smile, raised brows, an expression meant to remind you you're worrying yourself over nothing.

- these habits don't go away overnight, but with time (and a lot of struggle), your apologies lessen, at least with Silco. You still have the occasional bout of anxiety that sends you spiraling in your remorse, but for the most part, your "sorry"s make themselves scarce, only ever used when needed, or when they slip through the cracks of your healing.

- as an added bonus, Silco learns when it's a good idea for him to apologise. He does it for you more than anyone, since he's more comfortable with you, but it gets to the point that Sevika notices it, saying she thought he'd never learn to say sorry. So, you both taught each other a valuable lesson about when apologies are necessary.

- though in terms of appearance, Silco doesn't show much seasonal spirit, his demeanor changes greatly during the springtime. He seems more at peace with himself, and he finds motivation more easily. He's able to enjoy the small details of life more often, and though he's not the biggest fan of sunlight, the way life returns to the world as it warms up is one of his favourite things to watch.

- he goes on more quiet walks, which you are welcome to join him on, and allows himself to savour the season as he wanders. He smells the flowers, watches the spring animals wander, soaks in the sunlight while enjoying the slight chill lingering from winter.

- I've mentioned a few times that my version of Silco likes birds, and in the spring, he tends to show even more appreciation for them as they return. He loves waking up to birdsong, he loves watchem them flutter around on his walks, he loves feeding them from his balcony over lunch. He collects the bright blue shells of robin eggs that he finds on his walk, making sure to leave some in their place so they can still serve their purpose in misleading predators.

- Silco hates the summer, so he sees spring as his final chance to enjoy the cold. He basks in all the refreshing gusts of wind, the frost and dew that still cling to the earth, since he knows soon he'll have to put up with the unbearable heat and brightness of summer.

- though he doesn't start wearing spring colours, instead preferring to remain in his usual attire, he decorates his space in subtle ways.

- his office often smells of tulips, hyacinths, and lilies, the space perfumed by the bouquets he keeps on his desk. These are most often picked for him by someone he loves (if you like making bouquets, they're from you. If not, they're from Jinx), but he occasionally picks his own flowers.

- in his bedroom, where no one else can see, he has stained glass ornaments in his windows. In the mornings, he'll watch the way they catch the light and paint his ceiling in pastels, giving him hope for the day.

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Posted: April 12th, 2026

- it was late into the night when you became too drunk to order another round of shots. You had lost count of your drinks, slouched with your cheek pressed to the polished wood of the bar, music blaring in your ears, your thoughts muddy and fleeting as you waited for sleep or death to take you, whichever came first.

- then something caught your eye, then. Or rather, someone.

- through your spinning vision, you caught a glimpse of a man, lithe and well dressed, dark hair with grey streaks, a serious and aged face... incredibly handsome, probably great in bed...

- how you managed to get close enough to wrap your arm around his waist, he's not sure, given that Sevika was with him... she probably didn't see you as a threat, he realised.

- you were sloshed, slurring some flirtatious banter at him with a grin, offering to buy him a drink and all that. Using only a glance, she asked if he needed her help, but he waved her off, assuring her it was fine. You were far too drunk to try anything.

- it felt strange, getting attention like this from someone so attractive. He should have been basking in it, enjoying every moment of it, but he couldn't bring himself to flirt back when you were like this.

- kindness had never come naturally to him, especially not with strangers, but the thought of leaving you in this state, wasted and alone in a crowded undercity bar with no help in sight, was too much for him to bear. He didn't even want to even think of what could happen to you.

- as you clung to him and mumbled in confusion, he helped you to his office, draped you across his chair. You remarked on the smell of smoke, recalled some memory it brought up. He did his best to listen, but you were practically speaking gibberish. Maybe one day it would be brought up again.

- you distantly understood that he was asking how much alcohol you had, but you were only able to tell him that it had been a lot. He asked if you had taken anything other than alcohol, which you hadn't. Shimmer wasn't for you, and no one had a good smoke, so you stuck to drinking.

- before he could think better of it, he asked if you were drinking to run away from something. He knew the feeling all too well. Though at first you were bashful, it didn't take long for you to start telling him about your problems with love, health, money, whatever it may have been that brought you down enough to find yourself in The Last Drop.

- food and water had appeared in front of you, and as your emotions started to get the better of you, a glass was eased to your lips between gentle whispers. You realised then that you hadn't asked this man's name, but the thought left you as quickly as it appeared.

- in this quiet moment, Silco wondered for the first time why he was doing this. He easily could have left you in your stupor, ordered Sevika to throw you out for daring to lay your hands on him, but he couldn't bring himself to even entertain the idea. Yes, you were a stranger, but you were leaning on him in your time of need, something that almost no one trusted him with. Maybe he just felt the need to do something good for once.

- now this random drunk was in his chair, being fed and soothed by his hand between mumbled nonsense.

- now and again, you'd try to kiss him or pull at the buttons of his shirt, but every time you would receive the same response. You're far too drunk for that, you need to rest and recover.

- part of you knew better than to be hopeful, but... he did seem to want you. He only said that you weren't in the right state for a hookup, not that he was opposed to the idea, which was a small detail you clung to far too much.

- reality blurred some more. Maybe you threw up, maybe you blacked out, maybe you were just dazed. You somehow ended up in a soft, warm bed. Perhaps you were carried, or maybe you were just guided. All you remembered was the feeling of his cold hands against your skin, his sturdiness keeping you from falling until you were laid on the covers.

- he set you down gently, helped you take off your heavier layers and get comfortable. You can stay here tonight. He kept his tone gentle, his hands tracing patterns on your face as he admired how you looked in the faint green light. I'll make sure you get home safe in the morning.

- it was only then as he gazed down at you, his left eye dimly glowing against the dark, that you finally comprehended who he was.

- you had heard as much about him as anyone else, his plans to liberate Zaun and the harm he had caused along the way. His hands were bathed in blood, but in your stupor, they had been too gentle for you to notice the glaring signs of who he was. You had learned to fear this man, but after that night, he no longer seemed a monster. He seemed human.

- he was speaking to someone, lingering in the doorway and keeping his good eye on you. The green light from his office framed his silhouette as you stared, wondering how you had gotten yourself into such a mess, how you were going to get out of it... Most of all, wondering why the Eye Of Zaun was helping your drunk self when he easily could have had you thrown out for bothering him.

-it was these thoughts that lingered as you drifted off into a deep sleep, dreaming of things buried in the sand, resting until after noon the next day.

- you jolted out of bed, bathed in your own sweat and alone in a stranger's room. But a stranger you knew well from rumours and... fuck, what did you do last night?

- you were expecting to be kicked out as soon as you woke up, but as you began gathering your things, he came to check on you. You realised that you had slept in his bed. Had he slept at all, you wondered? Did he ever sleep?

- seeing you standing with your bag clutched in your arms, coat thrown clumsily over your shoulders, no doubt looking as hungover as you felt, he showed only a moment's surprise before regaining himself.

- I didn't think you'd be up just yet. You were... quite drunk last night.

- the awkward air stifled you, but before you could form the words for a proper apology, he stepped closer and spoke with the same smooth tone as the night before. Stay for as long as you need. I'll have breakfast brought to you.

- he was a monster, you knew, but a kind one. A monster that cared for you, genuinely. A monster you might be able to tame, with time and patience. A monster you could love.

- it's funny, when he told you to stay for as long as you needed, he wasn't expecting you to stay in his life forever. He's not complaining, though. You make good company.

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Posted: January 6th, 2025

- good girl/good boy/good pet is most frequently used, whichever you prefer. It's just a quick and easy way to tell you that you're doing well, and he can tell you love those words.

- you look so gorgeous like this, it's hard to believe you're all mine. (He compliments you like this whenever you dress up for him, or when you take a position he likes, just whenever he feels especially attracted to you and wants to express it.)

- this is such a nice colour on you. Should we leave it on for a while longer? (When he uses ropes, collars, gags, etc, he'll make comments like this, both to tease you and to remind you that he finds you attractive.)

- you're so eager, aren't you? Perfectly obedient, too... So good for me. (He likes to praise you when you follow his orders, reminding you that obedience is always rewarded with him.)

- that's it, dear, you're taking me so well. Just don't forget to breathe, yes? (He'll often check up on you and encourage you like this, reminding you not to get too carried away.)

- you sound so pretty... Don't stop, love. No one's going to hear. (Reminding you you're in a safe space and that you don't have to hold anything back, because he loves to hear you moan, knowing that he's the one making you feel so good.)

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Posted: October 20th, 2025

- once he notices how exhausted you are (almost immediately) he makes sure to take care of you before doing anything else. As I've mentioned, the health of his loved ones is extremely important to him. You need to be healthy if you want to take care of this kid.

- he's always making sure that you get sufficient rest, food, water, leisure time, everything you need to not just survive but live. Other people can look after your kid. In the meantime, you need to stay healthy.

- he buys you food if you're too tired to make any. He also buys something for your kid while he's at it, just a little treat, and it becomes a habit for him to always get something for them when he's out buying anything.

- he helps with chores and errands, helps you with money, anything he can do to make your life a little easier, especially if you were already struggling. You will have so much support.

- for the first little bit of being around your kid, he covers his scar with make-up, knowing that his appearance can scare even grown adults, but he slowly uses less so they can get used to his actual face. And your kid handles it really well, which you and him are both relieved about.

- Jinx is also very good with kids, as we've seen with Isha. She's good at making them laugh, keeping them distracted, and keeping them safe. She shows them her explosives, teaches them some moves she learned from Vi, and honestly scares you shitless with half the things they do together. But your kid's always fine in the end so??? At least they're learning survival skills?

- Sevika is reluctantly good with your kid, but not a great influence. Her idea of taking care of them is letting them sit on her lap and drink apple juice while she gambles and smokes. But your kid seems to enjoy hanging out with her, at least, and it gives you some time to relax, so sure, your kid can learn poker with this murderous woman, why not.

- You realise that Silco actually really likes having a tiny human around. Like he adores your kid, and it's really sweet seeing how happy he is, even though having a toddler around isn't always easy. So sometimes you'll be resting in another room and just hear him responding to your child's babbles with things like oh really? And then what? He said that? Oh my. So you put him on his ass? Of course you did. I'm so proud. You shouldn't laugh at him teaching your kid swear words but it's just too cute and silly for you not to giggle.

- and just like that, you're so much less tired. You have time for yourself sometimes, because now you have Silco, Sevika, and Jinx also looking after your kid instead of you doing it alone.

- The Last Drop and Silco's office are cluttered with toys and drawings, reputation be damned. If anything, having your child known puts a shield around them, because that's the kid that Sevika looks after sometimes, that's the kid that Jinx hangs out with, that's the kid that Silco clearly loves very much. And those are the three scariest people in Zaun, so. Yeah no one's hurting your kid.

- and these people in your life are mixing like watercolours to make a beautiful painting.

- your child is learning lots of colourful words, but also learning strategy and safety and how to survive in the Lanes, which is very useful.

- they sometimes try to copy Silco's expressions, using only half their face, but they just end up scrunching their eyes all weird. But it's still cute.

- they also try to play the gambling card games they learned from Sevika with you, and like. Since there's no money involved, they're just card games, but it's still kind of weird playing blackjack with your kid instead of like, go fish or something.

- and of course, they've got a bunch of Jinx's clothes and trinkets now, and they've learned to draw in her style. You just hope that they don't try doing all the tricks that she does, since they are wayyyy too tiny for any of that.

- one day, you notice Sevika accidentally use her parent voice on one of her coworkers and her face instantly falls when she realises she just asked a grown ass man if he needs a time-out. Because 1) what has she become, and 2) that means that she actually has a specific way that she talks to that little runt and she uses it enough that it slips into her everyday speak. So she has a bit of a crisis over that.

- and Jinx suddenly is better at understanding your toddler's babbles than you and Silco combined, for reasons you don't understand. And all her bandages are replaced by little cartoon bandaids since she's so used to patching up your kid that they're the only ones she buys. Which is kind of cute but also why is my kid getting injured so often with you huh Jinx. Should I be worried JINX.

- and Silco. Gods, Silco. You never thought he could be cute but when it comes to your child he is adorable. His voice gets sweeter, he gets this loving expression on his face, he gives them little forehead kisses and adores everything they do. He's just. absolutely endeared by this tiny version of you. It seems like whenever they're together, your kid is on his lap, on his shoulders, or just clinging to him in general, and gods, does it melt your heart.

- your kid isn't even scared of his eye or his scar anymore. When you ask if it bothers them at all they just say it's like a nightlight, and when he overhears that he has to hold back tears. What do you mean this tiny human who just had a super scary nightmare is comforted by his eerie glowing eye because it reminds them of a night light. That is so cute. He has to go cry now.

- and let it be known that your kid is also incredibly spoiled under his care. Their new dad is the richest man in Zaun and he adores them to death, they can have literally anything they want.

- unfortunately this means that your child really learns how to pull on people's heartstrings because with the right tone and the right pout they can get Silco to do literally anything. So you have to get better at saying "no" even when it feels absolutely impossible.

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Posted: August 20th 2025

- first of all, she still has short hair. Like she has a cunty bob at best, never past her shoulders. It gets in the way too much (and she looks better with short hair)

- she aged like fine wine lemme tell you. She can still wear tight dresses and look amazing doong it. The wrinkles make her more attractive if anything.

- she doesn't try to do any anti-aging treatments. She knows she's only getting more alluring with age and she wants to embrace that beauty. Honestly, even if she was ugly, she still wouldn't care much about her age. She'd wear those nice dresses even if people gagged when they looked her way. But instead, she's blessed with beauty beyond age and she will embrace it.

- even though she doesn't care about aging, she does her best to stay healthy. She stays fit, she has a well-rounded diet, and she has regular appointments with every kind of doctor she could need. But she still drinks and smokes, so she's not perfectly healthy.

- like in canon, she drinks mainly whiskey, but she's also a fan of red wine, gin, and vodka.

- her voice is incredibly attractive. Slightly rough, silky and smooth, and she very much uses it to her advantage.

- she has hundreds more outfits than masc!Silco. Like a lot of them are the same with slight variations but generally, she put a lot more time and effort into her wardrobe, if only because it adds to her image. But it's all in the same signature style and colours.

- she uses roses a lot more in her style and persona. She likes showing that she has power with her femininity, not despite it.

- she wears corsets on the daily. She says it's for her posture (it's actually because she knows she looks great in corsets).

- she still keeps her makeup relatively simple. Just light foundation, mascara, eyeliner. The most daring thing she uses is a dark red lip tint, maybe some gloss if she's feeling adventurous.

- she usually goes unshaved unless she's going to a fancy event, then she might shave her legs and underarms. Generally though, she stays natural. (Also she has a 5 star bush but you didn't hear that from me)

- fem!Silco has a lotttt more flirtatious confidence, and it works very well for her. Like, she'll briefly flirt with a woman in The Last Drop and within the next hour she's naked and smoking in bed with a stranger. She winks at an enforcer and is pardoned for every crime she's ever committed. She uses a sultry voice on a chem baron and they forget why they're mad at her. She's a straight up siren idk what to tell you.

- in this universe I'm gonna say Vander is also fem and they had a tragic sapphic romance when they were young adults (Silco is actively crying to "Good Luck, Babe!")

- honestly fem!Silco is very Chappell Roan coded to me. Femininomenon is her anthem.

- she's a believer in "femininity is whatever you want it to be" and "women have no obligation to cater to your desires." She supports braless women, unshaved women, trans women, women who get plastic surgery, women who are completely natural, women who do makeup, get waxed/shaved, get mani-pedis, etc, all women. Except TERFs. Silco never supports TERFs, no matter the universe.

- evil bisexual in all timelines ✨

- she LOVES honorifics. "Ma'am" "miss" "madam" etc. are all confidence boosters for her. But her favourite is "my lady" in a slightly nervous tone, that one reaaaally gets her.

- Jinx calls her "ma", "mama", or "ma'am", depending on the occasion. "Ma" for casual settings, "ma'am" for professional settings, "mama" if she REALLY wants something (not that Silco would ever refuse her)

- (🎶a single mom who works two jobs who loves her kids and never stops-🎶)

- she still has canon Silco's fucked up teeth by the way (they are going RIGHT IN MY NECK—)

These last few headcanons are much more suggestive and are focused on fem!Silco's relationship with the reader! Here is a fluff+comfort Silco x reader post for if you need to stop ❤️

- fem!Silco is an absolute sugar mommy. She'll buy you literally anything, as long as you keep her satisfied and show good manners.

- "thank you, ma'am" is a must after every purchase she makes for you, just because she thinks she sounds cute when you say it ❤️

- honestly I can only imagine fem!Silco as a dom. Like even if you're like a 6'6" man with bulging muscles she's still not gonna be a sub for you, sorry not sorry, on your knees babygirl.

- she's a heavy rigger and a voyeur, she loves receiving oral, and she's happy to give praise and/or degradation if that makes sex better for you. Her favourite way to pleasure others is with her hands (and man, she is amazing with her hands), but she can also use her mouth if you ask nicely.

- she will happily have you between her thighs no matter the setting. She's open to public sex, office sex, or just bedroom sex, whatever you're comfortable with.

- she looooves buying you outfits. Yes, sometimes in a voyeuristic way, but a lot of the time she just likes seeing you in nice outfits. She likes seeing the way you smile when she gets you one you really like.

- she generally loves taking care of you. She buys you nice meals, nice clothes, jewelry, treats, trinkets, anything you like. Once you've been together for some time, she buys you your dream apartment and everything you need to decorate it and make it yours ❤️

- she also buys the best BDSM materials. The softest ropes, sturdiest gags, prettiest lingerie, most comfortable harnesses and collars, only the best quality for her love ❤️

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Posted: September 18th, 2025