#lazaruscomplex

tyler, my dad, my valentine, my love, my i’m running out of different names for you, my babe, i love you so fucking much. we’ve known each other for over two years now? probably? who knows ( perception of time? don’t know her. time isn’t fucking real linda. ) and having you in my life has !!!! been a fucking honor , tht’s gay but true. you’ve dealt with so much of my shit for that long and dealt with my writing back when it was fucking TERRIBLE, not saying it’s completely ace right now but it was ... it wasn’t great but you still loved me and my characters!!!! wanted to explore universes with them !!!! 

god, don’t even get me started about your ability to word build? i think this is why your oc’s always seem like ... people, living things, natural creations rather than just fictional characters, because you have this ability to build an entire universe from nothing just with your mind and i love !!!! when you rant about your oc’s, your char’s and how they all intertwine into this big picture that has so many small details. i don’t know how you do it. i don’t know how you manage to build characters from borderline nothing and make them their own universe in a way that has me wanting to know everything every step of the way. 

BOI........... UR CURRENT UNIVERSE YOU’RE PLANNING OUT W/ THOMAS AND REYES STILL HAS ME FUCKED UP. I’M BARELY EVEN INVOLVED AND I’M EMOTIONALLY INVESTED. I JUST WANT MY KIDS TO BE OKAY TYLER, I WANT THEM TO BE OKAY.

i’m getting off topic, of course i am, i’m me. word vomit is my forte. anyway: i’ve seen your writing develop so fucking much... how talented you are in putting fucking words together to form fucking art  ( yes, your writing is art. fucking fight me? fight me. ) in a way that has multiple times, made my gay ass cry, yes, cry. eyes leaking salty liquid because i’m WEAK for YOU ya ASSHOLE. 

you’re so fucking nice, you’re so honest and nice and amazing and you mean so so so much to me. i’ve made so many oc’s and you’re actually invested in their development and make characters to BUILD off of mine !!!! just to build !!!! a world with me !!!!! you have no idea how much that means to me, to have you always there willing and wanting to write with me and !!!!! god i love how excited i get for our threads and it’s because it’s with you and i get to hear about your character’s from you not just from threads. 

i got to see the development of cam greenberg built from an oc i made only because i hated the name aaron ( it’s so selfish, why two a’s? it looks so extra. what the fuck. ). i got to see you build your writing into what it is today which is something you’d call a mess but you can get fucked because i fucking love it and i always will.

anyway: enough about writing, let’s get really gay. tyler you’re one of the most honest people i know which helps my anxiety a lot and i’m so grateful !!!! that you’re so fucking nice to me !!!! you’re so encouraging and supporting and you’re such a constant in my life and we can go days without talking but it’s okay because i know you’re always there and i’ll always be there for you in the same way. 

like my !!! person all the way in fuckin’ america, wyd there, come live with me, ok thnx. you’re so resilient and you deal with so much shit and you keep on !!!! going, i’m so proud of you. i’m so fucking proud of you. i’m so proud to see who you’ve become, to hopefully get to see who you do become, i’m just so proud of you. i’m so thankful to have you in my life, thank you for staying, for talking to me, for dealing with my shit, for writing with me, for being you in a way that’s made me love you so fucking much.

THROW IN A LK SELF PROMO OF MY POETRY BUT LET’S SEE THAT RLY FUCKING GAY POEM I WROTE ABOUT US, YES, A FUCKING POEM, HOW GAY CAN I GET:

i hope we are the universe, i hope we’re something beautiful, i hope we’re never-ending,

i hope we define becoming infinite.

i hope they love us, or maybe envy us.

i hope they know that a constellation of stars is just burning love and that’s what we are.

i love you so much, tyler. i look forward to having you in my life for as long as you’ll have me. 

BEATLES MEME ; ACCEPTING

         “What, is that th’reason why you think I’ve stuck my bloody neck out on the line for your shank butt time and time again?” Newt’s grin fades slightly, the chuckle catching in the wind and leaving him slowly as he returns his stare to the rest of the sleeping Glade beyond where the two boys ( well, boy and man ) stood, watching over everything like two vigilant protectors who also happened to share in their insomniac ways. 

             “  okay, two favours. one: you need to let me hide out here for a while. two: you need to let me borrow your phone.  “ elis USUALLY tries her best to maintain a decently CALM composure, but there’s little room for calm when she’s being followed by the COPS and they have her cell phone.