#lawislife

Dear Tumblr,

I am trying my best to accomplish as much as I can with the limited time I have for the bar exams. I just do not have the necessary focus, goodness I hate how I feel every time I realize how much time I have been wasting.

I hate that I prefer instant gratification than actually putting my focus on a long term goal. I hate to disappoint everyone right now, I simply cannot forgive myself if I failed the bar exams this November.

There is a part of me that wishes the Bar Examination to be moved, I just do not have enough time to study all 8 subjects of the Bar. I do not know if my medications are working either. The anti-depressant surely helps with my temper but as to my focus? There's no change at all.

Why do I have to be born with ADHD? Why do I have to be so ambitious and lack the effort to pursue that ambition?

Dear World of Tumblr,

I was half way done with the entry I was making then I tried this new shiny crap of Tumblr and everything I have just written was deleted. So I let's start from the top?

This has been quite a day for me. I started late since my fiancé was using my laptop for her work this morning. Sometimes I wish she would use her own laptop for these things. She has her own laptop, she is also using my old laptop, and now she is using my new laptop once in a while. I do not understand why she has to use so many device. I didn't even bother asking as she will take that as offensive (as always). A fight or an argument is the last thing I need right now.

I just finished organizing my Bar Review Schedule for both Jurists Bar Review and University of Cebu Bar Review. Unfortunately and as expected, most of the schedules are overlapping. Thank goodness my fiancé is here to attend those subjects I cannot attend. I really need someone to help me out with the notes I will be needing for review. The price we pay for ambition huh?

I do not know if someone actually read the crap I am posting here. I just need to vomit the thoughts in my head somewhere without any care as to the construction and grammar. Sometimes, trying to conform with the rules set by our society can be exhausting but I guess it is what makes the world go round.

My brother is cooking fried chicken fillet and spaghetti tonight. The smell makes me excited for dinner, I am famished. He got the skill I tell you that. I hope to establish a restaurant with him one day.

Anyway, I cannot eat dinner just yet as I have to finish some stuff before I have my dinner. I am planning to finish the topic for "probation" tonight so I can cover a lot of topics tomorrow. I have to really finish something before review starts.

Well, I guess that's all the thoughts I have right now. Till the next entry I guess?

Sincerely,