#lain lit

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Tommy Kinard Characters: Evan "Buck" Buckley, Tommy Kinard, mentioned Bobby Nash - Character, Mentioned Vincent Gerrard - Character Additional Tags: Grief/Mourning, Curses, Bobby Nash's Funeral, Emotional Hurt, Some comfort, Canonical Character Death Summary:

Despite Tommy's best efforts, Evan manages to corner him after Bobby's casket is loaded onto the plane.

"Tommy," he says, voice hoarse and dripping with grief. "P-please."

or, Buck has a curse. He thinks Tommy will help.

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Something happens and Buck needs a baby sitter for Theo only every other trusted adult in his life is suddenly busy so in a panic he scrolls down his contact list and calls Tommy. Who, of course, agrees even though his eye brows do that thing. Buck can't see them but he knows they are.

Tommy is sort of like. Wtf do I even do with a kid but when he tells Theo he's a pilot Theo wants to make a helicopter to fly and Tommy looks around and is like. Best I can do is a paper airplane kid. So they spend all day making more and more elaborate paper airplanes ans Tommy even begrudgingly looks on YouTube for suggestions and they through them out of the attic window much to Theo's delight.

Theo of course is enchanted with Tommy and the paper airplanes and then regular toy airplanes and then real life airplanes and as he gets a little older Tommy buys him his first model airplane. He and Theo spend hours in the garage together building it and it's some of the most quiet and focused Buck has ever seen Theo. Tommy and Theo keep building model planes together and one day they build one and when they show it to Buck it has "Evan, will you marry me?" painted along the side and Buck cries so hard he nearly breaks the model.

Theo talks them into an airplane themed wedding and Tommy bemoans how much harder a paper helicopter is to make and how their kid imprinted on the wring kind of air craft and then Buck kisses him and they don't come up for air for a very long time. One day Theo folds up the adoption paperwork into one of the fancy paper planes he and Tommy learned how to make and sails it across the room and when Tommy opens it he cries so hard they have to reprint the paperwork.

This to me reads as a buddietommy fic where Buck gets increasingly insecure about all of the things that Eddie and Tommy have in common. Like that they both prefer black coffee and Buck drinks whatever sounds fun and sweet. They both have in-jokes from their time in the army that Buck can't relate to. They like to spar together and Buck isn't coordinated in the way that allows him to make it through a match without a self influcted wound.

Eddie and Tommy don't work on their own without Buck, at least not as well. Without his bleeding heart they would pick at each other until there's nothing left because when left on their own they don't know how else to be. And they know that, although maybe subconsciously, but they are both bad about telling him that. Actions are good but Buck can really get in his head and sometimes needs to be told things really directly, and repeatedly, before he starts to internalize it.

So Buck is all pissy and Eddie and Tommy are trying to fix it but the coordinated effort they have to approach the issue makes Buck even more upset and they sort of go on this merry go round of everyone having a terrible time and Not Talking About It until Buck's dramatic ass blows up one day and is like "Fine! I can take a hint ! I'll leave so you can finally be alone together like you so clearly want!" And Eddie and Tommy are like. Literally nothing sounds worse please do not leave and they talk about it a tiny bit just enough to know they need to tell Buck how important he is and that it doesn't matter what Tommy and Eddie may have in common it just means Buck has a type that's all!!

This song, and this line in particular scream Eddie Diaz to me. Post Chris leaving Eddie is doing Very Badly and picks some random Spotify playlist because he doesn't have the energy to think about what kind of music he likes and this song comes on and he has to pull over because he's crying so hard he can't see.

So he has a teeny (tiny) mental breakdown and has to go back to seeing Frank regularly and maybe gets a specialist for stuff Frank isn't quite qualified for and it sucks even worse than the first time he did this but he still can't make it through the first chorus of this stupid song and his son is still gone so he keeps going.

He gets Chris back in like. Any other way than we see and has a real conversation confronting his parents about how they treated him as a child and how they treat Chris now but Eddie also!!!! Has to deal with the ways his parents have changed since he was a kid and allow his perception of them from his youth to not lock them in to who they were 20 years ago.

In an ideal world this leads to Eddie realizing he is somewhere on the demiromantic/asexual spectrum and talking with Chris and his family about it and realizing he doesn't need his family to look the way he's always felt pressured for it to look, that what they have is enough.

Tagged by @corporatebanana @wee-fuckin-woo and @capitalnineteen. I think like everyone has been tagged already but if you haven't!!! Then this one is for you 🫵.

fanfic or original? title?

Fanfic! Right now I just refer to it as the Superman au. I have a tentative title but I'm not 100% sold on it yet.

first two sentences of your current project

"Do you think he had plastic surgery?"

Eddie pauses in his typing. "I'm not even sure I want to ask."

most recently written sentence of your current project

Despite the cold, Buck stays out on his balcony a few moments longer before finally turning around and heading back inside. He turns on his heated blanket while he takes a shower, but even with the warmth encasing him Buck has a hard time falling asleep that night.

favourite line(s) in your current project

This isn really hard, mostly because of the word count that already exists and also because. There are a number of scenes I really like so far. I think I will go with this snippet that I've already shared from the Buck/Hen conversation post Superman kiss. I love Buck and Hen and I feel like I did a pretty good job with their dynamic in this scene.

"We, uh. We kissed."

Hen blinks. "You and Superman?"

"Yeah."

"On the mouth?"

"Uh-huh."

Hen picks up her wine and takes a large gulp before setting it down. "For how long?"

Buck throws up his hands. "I don't know, Hen, I wasn't timing it!" He slumps down in his chair, rubbing the unbruised side of his forehead.

Hen considers him for a long moment, making him squirm. "You didn't ask me to come over and talk about this because I'm gay, right?"

"No!" Buck insists, sitting back up. "I asked you over to talk about this because you're the only cheater I know."

how close is your project to the end?

Hi Ali!! sorry this took so long to answer lol I didn't want to try and do links on mobile again.

💖 Which of your fics is your pride and joy?

When it is finished I have no doubt it will be superman au, just on account of how long i've been working on it and how plotty it is. For now, i think probably it is til i'm walking beside you (i'll walk alone) just because it was so different from anything i had done before and i think i really captured the feelings in that fic that i was trying to evoke, which is always a win.

🙌What's a line or paragraph of yours that you're proud of?

I did answer this here but! i will happily share more lol. this is from a tumblr ficlet i wrote post bobby that someday i will move to ao3 probably called you're (not) on your own, kid.

"No," he answers finally. There's a soft scratch of calloused skin as Tommy's thumb smooths over the top of his hand. "But this is...not making it better, but." He stops, unsure how to explain it. This isn't going to fix anything, not really. But it's still going to mean something, to him, something that will hopefully cut deeper than his grief.

Tommy squeezes his hand again. "Yeah," he says. "I get it. You can carry him with you, now."

🏡What is your perfect writing envrionment?

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and my question is, if you don’t mind me riffing a bit on your excellent work, who would be better at making a follow-up power point, Tommy or Eddie, and how much fun would Buck have watching the presentations and getting to judge them (obsessed with your whole brilliant concept of you can’t tell lmao)

Hi HJ!!!

Okay answering these out of order since one of the answers is going to go below a read more

🐎 Would you ever do a medieval or pirate au?

I feel like there are a lot of medieval aus already (which I LOVE) and I think I would get bogged down in the history of it but!!! I wouldn't say no to a pirate au I have always loved pirates. Maybe a POTC au someday?

As for your question about the buddietommy PowerPoint au ....I don't know! I can see them maybe joining forces and making one together for like Buck's birthday or something, making him squirm a little and be like "okay guys I get it alright we can go have sex now." I do think that whoever is giving one there is for sure a power point slide totally dedicated to Buck's dick. Like I'm sure of it. If they didn't do one together, I think Buck could very easily goad Eddie into making one even if his would be much less polished than what Buck made lol.

🙌What's a line or paragraph of yours that you're proud of?

I have talked about some things I liked in previous ask games I think, but one section of writing I really love is the last scene in til you're walking beside me (i'll walk alone) aka ww2 au. I cried a bit myself writing that and I'm just really proud of what I made and how I felt like I drew it all together in this final scene. I'm not going to pit the whole thing on here but I will share a bit below the cut for spoiler reasons.

Jess, my friend, never lose your big heart and kind spirit <3

7 ⧽. is there a fic you wish you received feedback on, but didn't get any/much? this ask game is asking someone else to then give feedback on said fic, pretty pretty please!!!

I feel like my second fic maybe didn't get the reaction I wanted, but also I tried a very different style of writing so I am also not sure I totally pulled it off. But there are some bangers in there that I am still proud of!

I also know my ww2 au is very sad and not for everyone but I do think there are a lot of whump girlies (gn) who would like it if they tried it.

9 ⧽. tell us about a wip/idea that you're excited about!

Going to be honest I am excited about my foray into hockey rpf, I think that will be fun. I also have some buddietommy ideas I am excited to work on once Superman au is done. And of course, the eddieravi mob boss fic that will someday be complete.