#lady?

im very confused regarding my gender and stuff.

most of my existence until this year i think, i have identified as a girl.

but i have started thinking and thinking and thinking and have come to the conclusion that hey maybe i'm not as girl as i think i am.

this started out with me realising that i might want to try out she/they pronouns because i liked them and liked using them, but that got me confused cause i didn't fully have a grasp on pronouns and how they relate to gender (unsure if i still fully get it but doing my best) so i asked my trans friend for help and he told me that i could still be a girl and use she/they pronouns.

that's helped but i still thought about if i was fully “girl”, i never once thought i might not be a girl, i always viewed myself as that and never really thought different, until this year when i started looking at myself in relation to what was going on with my gender.

i know that gender is on a spectrum and stuff and i still like to refer to myself as a lady and use feminine titles, but i would also like to be called sir and and other more masculine names.

i dont think im nonbinary, that just doesn't fit me. but i dont think im a girl, i don't view myself as a boy nor have i ever wanted to be one, but gender is weird and confusing.

the term gender non conforming seems somewhat fitting but im unsure and will need to do more research into it.

so yeah

gender is fucking weird.

I was loving the holographic sticker life!