#kourtarthur

Currently playing “crying over you - honne”. I obviously just be going through days where I can’t get melodies or lyrics out of my head. This one I particularly love, for many reasons beyond my comprehension.

January’s almost up & honestly, I don’t know. Not to sound ungrateful for all the progress I’ve made, but I can’t help but feel anxious. Could it be because I’m looking forward to one too many things? 🤔

Happy to have an outlet like this to share a part of me. Also, something to look back on for nostalgia and such you know, lol.

Shoutout to 2019, still coming for everything that’s mine, regardless of how long it takes.

Ps, we’re going to feel broken for a bit, & it’s gonna be a lil bit sh*t, but you’ll find the strength when you’re weak. - BEKA

you see this opening statement was just a distraction. like a means of organising and a process of starting my thoughts out.

i feel like my mind is full and i just want to write everything i'm thinking and feeling. the year's almost over and my thoughts are flowing.. taking me all the way back to the start of the year.

life's happening you know, and sometimes you don't even realise how the days go by so quickly. this year has been quite significant for me and kind of reminds me of 'my 2015'.

i feel as if i haven't even done all that but i'm getting to a point where i'm comfortable with taking myself away from my comfort zone.

i may be able to write a whole chapter on the past 6 months (this is me speaking like its December or maybe January). speaking of chapters, i'm redoing my disso. & someone said to me, 'you know your disso (dissertation, final project) is like your life'. makes sense and i'm so thankful for opportunities to make things right.

i pray for strength, patience, peace, to continue to head in the right direction. currently trying to write for my youtube channel. i have everything i need but somehow i'm reluctant...