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Hi guys it's mod Ash. I'm sorry I haven't been active here lately. I've been going through a lot of school stress and anxiety, so I had to take a break. But I'm stopping that and trying to get back on track. Also I have a YouTube channel that I'm starting back at so I will be on there more. I'm sorry guys!!! I love y'all!! - Mod Ash
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Ask meme: Craig Tucker, Oxenfree Nona, Nichole Daniels. c;
auri i think the ask meme was referring to characters i havent kinfirmed yet but
thank u very much this makes me feel all good inside
was super intrigued by the fiction lifestyling panel at othercon, in part because i'd actually been doing it for years without knowing! i'm constantly making tiny lifestyle changes in order to feel more like myself, i've been dying my hair black since 2022, and my sense of style changes a little bit per kinshift.
it's something i have to keep in check though, because generally speaking if i do it too much, i start analysing my actions outside of fiction lifestyling too much, and trying to force myself to do things i don't enjoy simply because i did them in canon.
one of the things i definitely want to do though is cook with my tail on
i play the cello and im forever mad at how inconvenient it is on the battlefield. besides stabbing with the inpin
im glad i finally realized my kinship with lapis, even if it took so long. it just made a lot of things fall in line yknow? like there were always some things that i had feelings about but until i entered the kin community i didnt /realize/ were kin feelings yknow? like
•whenever im startled, my immediate reaction is to either freeze or fly and its always confuaed me why literal flight was an option in my mind
•my avid hate for jasper, correlating with how relatable the presentation of jas///pis was played out in canon with events in my own life
•my love for the ocean and being in water (which is connected to some other things as well but shhh)
•the strong love for peridot, but never in the same way as lapis. peridot i love for her personality and character, which makes sense considering my lapis was in a romantic relationship with her, but my love for lapis feels like kinship, like i was her. everything about her feels like home.
•hell, we share the same traits and traumas. mood swings, abusive relationships, being trapped for most of our lives, being overlooked for who we are instead of just what we can be used for, trust issues, depression, ptsd, the damn list goes on
and like i said, i didnt realize the feelings were kin ones for a long time. didnt realize why my back always felt like there was weight missing, didnt realize why these very specific flashbacks of moments with peri would reoccur so often. but now, once ive confirmed(kinfirmed?) those feelings, it feels kinda weird to have barely any memories. sure, i have the one or two with peri, and im fairly sure i was canon compliant aside from that, seeing as i share the same feelings and traumas as canon!lapis, but i just,,dont remember a lot. but thats okay. these things take time to figure out, and i should give myself that time. its just nice to be able to kintalk after so long, and to realize new things about this soul this go-around every day. to realize past forms its taken on, again and again.
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mm sharla took care of me because i had nowhere else to go we couldnt save our parents from the mechon
that "tell him where he can stick his grapes" post is me and sharla in our canon tbh "juju, tell the nice man where he can stick his grapes." "uuummm.... IN THE FRIDGE!" "juju NO."
sharla got mad at me for memeing once.
