#kingdom.chronicles

the new royal building was pretty nice. the cafeteria was spacious. sohee felt a little envious being here in comparison to trc. it was only because of the newness but she kind of preferred this cafeteria to theirs. although in the grand scheme of things, how much did it really matter? not that much, sohee tells herself if only to feel better. she wasn’t jealous. this was just a really cool experience. she doubts trc would ever do something like this.

she went to go grab her tray to get some food. chopsticks and forks were available as well as soup spoons. sohee didn’t know what she was going to eat yet though. she knows she was getting rice so chopsticks were a must. she saw grilled chicken on one of the menus, she swears. so maybe she’d eat some chicken today. that would mean she needed a knife.

when she had first walked over to the utensils section the cafe was mostly empty. sohee didn’t feel the urgency to grab everything and walk away. she took her time, unaware of anyone coming behind her who could possibly want or need to grab something as well.

“ah...” sohee pouted at her reflection in the mirror. she wasn’t accustomed to dressing like this. it wasn’t her style in particular (she was more high fashion than super casual street fashion like this). her midriff was exposed but it wasn’t like it showed the abs that she had finally gotten from the gym workouts. it seemed like a waste but she knows the modesty was for the sake of the promotional video. the outfit wasn’t terrible (thankfully) so sohee didn’t have many negative comments about it.

she turned to yubin, who was looking good in her own outfit for the choreography video. “unnie look i got pigtails!” sohee says with a bright smile. her fingers wrap around both tied locks of hair and swings it about to prove her point. “i wish the shirt fit a but differently but i like this outfit. i just don’t wear stuff like this a lot.” she was mostly musing out loud but yubin’s opinion would be beneficial for her in return. she wasn’t the type to dress like this ever. she hoped it wasn’t obvious that she was out of her element.

“are you excited? are you ready? it’s the first official filming!” although it wasn’t for their music video itself, it was for their teaser. that was just as good because this content was being released sooner. “it seems to be happening all at once.”

APRIL 11TH - filming

filming for a music video had been a lot more complicated than sohee expected. it was nothing like the you got nerve music video. they had only done a few quick scenes. this was an entire video -- their video -- from start to finish. they got breaks when another girl was filming. and it’s not like they had days to film this. they had a single day to do it. so if it meant staying after 7pm, sohee was sure they’d keep them just to get the shot they wanted.

today they were doing “box scenes”. sohee wasn’t sure what they meant by that upon her arrival. even the explanation of “being inside a literal box” didn’t really connect with her until they were shown the set. the girls had no idea what the final product was going to look like. sohee kind of assumed they were doing box scenes like ariana grande’s focus came out to be. but instead of it being tasteful silhouettes, it turned out to be them straight up in the box with their limbs strewn about.

sohee watched the first girl with mild interest. “that seems to be uncomfortable,” she noted, eyeing the way her legs were bent at the knee to fit into the box. “especially if you’re taller. i’ve never been happier that i’m shorter.”

admittedly, there wasn’t much left to do in the dorm once the girls all got home. someone started cooking, some went off to their rooms and some to watch television but there wasn’t much to do. it was a little weird because they weren’t forced to stay in their dorms but it did feel awkward just to walk out whenever. so she was intent on entertaining herself.

leaving her room, she ventured across the dorm to doyeon and joy’s shared room. she didn’t have a set target for now. she’d settle on whomever happened to be in the room at the time. when she knocks and pushes open the door, her eyes set on joy.

she lets out a long, dramatic groan, crawling onto the bed on top of joy. “i’m dying of boredom! please entertain me. you love me right?” she asks, adjusting herself so she was laying on joy comfortably. “please entertain me. it’s your duty or else i will die.” aside from the fact that she wanted to be entertained, being cuddled worked just as well to keep her mind busy.

sohee was a little disappointed to know that her hair wasn’t changing for their debut. her black hair was nice (and incredibly healthy, mind you) but she was hoping to at least get a cool colour. though it seemed obvious that they weren’t getting experimental with colours just yet as the lightest any girl got was a shade of brown. the black hair in the end suited sohee more than brown hair. maybe it was meant to give her a darker look.

besides she liked her long hair. so it wasn’t a bad thing. it would pop up nicely against the white background they were being given for the photoshoot. this was more her element. sohee felt brighter. after doing so many choreographies she really needed a break. the photoshoot was perfect.

“i really missed modelling,” she says with a smile, watching others take their photos before them. “honestly it’s so relaxing to me now that it’s been a while since i left my mother’s agency. this is really my thing.” there’s no way she can really excel at modelling because at the end of the day, all of them were getting pretty pictures no matter what. but it was nice to not worry about sucking. this was something she could do in her sleep. “are you excited?” she asked with a smile, her fingers playing with vanessa’s still-brown hair. “or did you wish they changed your hair too?”

♕ Month: March ♘ Performance: Dose - Ciara

the announcement of a dance being used to showcase the new lineup for k.arma struck fear in sohee’s heart. she had been trying to get better with her dancing. she had worked with instructors and taken special workshops. she wasn’t as hopeless as she once was but she was terrified that she’d mess up and get more people saying she sucks at dancing and doesn’t deserve to debut.

she’s not as bad as she was previously but she knows she’s not on par with k.arma’s dance line. she probably never will be which means she’s always going to get those critiques. sohee can spend the rest of her career wishing she’d be as good as joy, sana or doyeon but the reality was that she just wasn’t a dancer like they were. not hopeless but nothing to be praised for amazing dance ability. she knows this.

of course sohee wasn’t given enough time to properly recover. they were also shown their new choreography for their debut song and the second single on the ep. which meant sohee, a non-dancer, was learning 3 choreographies simultaneously. this was her worst nightmare come true. she was certain that they would boot her from the group for failing even something as simple as a promotional video.

thankfully while learning formations, it was clear that sohee was to not get the spotlight as much. she was hoping to stay in the back of formations the whole time to maybe cover up what hayoon spent four months saying she lacked. however she was given centre at the very end for only a couple of seconds. thankfully it wasn’t for a part of the dance that required skillful foot movements. it was more of a pretty-girl moment which suited sohee just fine. though a part of her wishes she could do the cool parts in the song like dance line does she knows it’s probably for the best that she doesn’t stay in the spotlight for very long if at all.

a part of her hopes that this is the last dancing focused thing they do because she’s not much of a dancer and it wouldn’t build a positive image for herself before debut. she knows she’s lacking in comparison to the rest so she’s going to be in the back for anything like this. sohee wants just one instance where she could be able to show her talents. she knows it’s a little selfish of her but she wanted a chance to build fan hype for herself as well. no one is going to want to stan the pretty girl who can’t dance as well as the rest. everyone would think she was just a pretty face and just write her off. (she’s terrified of that happening.)

from the packet they received with rough line distributions, sohee noticed immediately that she and vanessa were competing for the same lines. whomever between the two of them did better in certain places would end up with that part. it made her feel nervous because once again, she and ness were pitted up against one another in some way. although that’s to be expected, of course, when they’re both main vocalists.

on the flip side she noticed that she and doyeon had a lot of complimentary parts. doyeon’s potential lines were either right before or right after sohee’s or they overlapped in a way. it got sohee thinking that maybe practising with doyeon would establish this rhythm so they’d have a good flow. of course sohee knew she wasn’t going to get every single line listed but there were a few that she hoped she did get.

“hey doyeonnie!” sohee greets with a smile. she’s been a bit chipper since the news dropped and it didn’t seem like a fake out. she really was in the group and despite the jab at her dancing still, sohee had a spot. there was nothing more that hayoon could do to break her spirits. since then sohee has felt lighter and happier. it’s definitely shown on her face and how she carries herself. “want to practise the song together? i saw that we have a lot of parts right after one another so maybe it’ll give us a good flow before we officially record!”

moving. for some reason she never processed the fact that she would have to give up her really nice apartment and move in to dorms. she had to start giving stuff away, selling it or straight up putting it in storage. her grandmother offered to keep a bunch of her stuff in her old childhood room. so a lot of her personal effects that mattered more to her than her coffee table, she would end up keeping. and her clothes. there was no way sohee was ever parting with a special edition 2009 gucci dress among other things. her more pricier clothing was to stay back. she would bring her more-normal clothes with her to the dorm.

then came dorm assignments. they were allowed to pick their roommates which came as another surprise to sohee. while she was friends with everyone in the group, there was only one person she really wanted to dorm with. the one person who, out of all the girls, she wouldn’t mind spending every night and morning with. though she knows they won’t be sharing beds (or she hopes, at least),

she’s going over her itinerary: things still left over to be packed, which is going to storage or her grandmothers house or to be sold. maybe this would be easier to organise if she knew officially who her dorm mate was going to be. so she steals a few glances over at vanessa, a little nervous. their relationship has definitely improved since the lineup was announced. they were no longer officially pitted against each other for a spot. but would vanessa want to be her dorm mate is the question.

“hey, uh, unnie?” sohee calls timidly, tucking her hair behind her ear. her teeth rake across her bottom lip nervously. “can you come here for a second? i need to ask you something important.”