#kid spock

Tpring looking at this other kid that looks so damn miserable, neither of them wanting to be here. Maybe Spock's parents would cover her ears with a headpiece or something to hide the bruised up skin during the engagement ceremony, but when Spock would tilt her head Tpring could just make out the bandages.

And the inherent loneliness in Spock's identity is SO IMPORTANT TO ME AAAAAH, being the only one of your kind, with people constantly trying to push you into some kind of box and consistently failing. A Vulcan bleeds green but then again, is Spock's blood the right shade of green? And a Vulcan shouldn't feel the things she is feeling, or struggle in the ways she does.

In the disdainful eyes of the Vulcans around her she is not Vulcan enough and in the presence of humans she finds solace in how alien she is. Then she smiles or laughs or cries and there it is again. She is not Vulcan. And though she works as hard as she can, and studies and engages with her culture as much as she can possibly muster, her genetics make her feel so unfathomably disconnected, a stranger to humans and an actor to Vulcans. And when Spock has a nightmare in which she gets hurt it is not the act itself that scares her but the fear that when she looks down, her blood might be red.