hi everyone :) i wanted to do a small little writeup. i am openly and proudly transmasculine. and i write vocaloid music. i just wanted to share the songs in particular i wrote that relate to my own personal experience.
please note that while more songs of mine can definitely resonate, these are the ones i can recall having this be explicitly referenced. my experience will weave its way into everything i create.
first we have my album, Music to Experience Existential Horrors to. this album is so transgender. being trans (and a system) is the core behind the album's concept. that being said, there are a couple of songs that are very upfront in their themes and messaging
1. Cracks in the Window is about coming to terms with your identity and starting your transition in an unsupportive household. This one is the most blunt.
2. verticillium is about abusive partners forcing detransition and cutting people off from their support networks.
3. GENETIC DISASTER is about transitioning as a system.
outside of MtEEHt, i've written a few others
1. OTT is mostly about being a system but also about self-love, including embracing being trans.
2. Reflection is about loving who you see in the mirror after transitioning.
3. Driver's License is about societal pressure, mismatching IDs, and dealing with transphobia.
4. fracture is a bit vague and touches on several things, but part of it is gender dysphoria and being guilted by people after you start transitioning.
5. mushroom forest is just verticillium. verticillium is a direct extension and remaster of mushroom forest, so they both share this theme.
i'm very proud of everything i've written, and i hope you can resonate!!














