#kb.

Lol.

chillin & rippin.

what’s up world, i’m kennedy and i was told to be relateable by talking about food. let me take you out to sushi and we can steal a boat after.  obviously i’m bad at first dates, but i’m pretty funny sometimes.

there was the run in with kath, which…. in hindsight, i don’t know why i even said anything to her. i didn’t owe that to her. she’s absolutely right and i should’ve kept my mouth shut. i’m not mad, i’m not angry, i’m not even hurt anymore. i think it’s just a lingering feeling of confusion and prolonged confusion can make me uncomfortable. i don’t know what to think of the situation but i haven’t seen her since, nor do i really want to.

then there’s ricky. we’ve spent the last two months on tour together and in that time, we went from not being able to be in the same room (literally running for the hills) to whatever the other night was and me continuing to stay the night. in my defense, i want to make sure he’s getting sleep. he looked really rough the other day when i first went over. i’m never going to not care about him. i know that somewhere, i still love him on just a human level. but it’s all also so confusing. and i don’t want either of us getting hurt again - especially not him. he doesn’t deserve that.

we tried catching up, or i tried to and very stupidly at that. she wishes i hadn’t said anything at all and i don’t blame her. i should have just ignored her but it would have felt rude and somehow worse to not even acknowledge her. after everything, after how long we were together, none of this has been easy. i don’t know if i’ve moved on really at all.