as someone who played all the bad ends, wailed, came back to life again i want to offer my semi official ranking of bad ends from got me wailing (least ish sad....) to absolutely bone crushing staring off into the wilderness (absolutely gut torture) though all of them are so bad
Etza - while i do think etza bad end is so sad esp for mc i think they get off relatively light compared to the other routes especially considering they're at... semi peace. and mc theoretically can continue in their footsteps.... just have to live with the haunting knowledge of how they exist alone now because their lover sacrificed themselves for them.... gave themselves away for their lover without ever being selfish for themselves.......... wails
kayn - this is actually a nightmare scenario i would genuinely lose my will to live in this position fuck you mean my one last longing love that i finally found has been ripped away permanently and my only memories of them been tainted beyond repair. and everyone remembers them so vividly except for me who finally found something different. this ending is so bad and i cry whenever i see the last cg of kayn but considering mc is still implied alive and kayn too.. i guess to live with the semi knowledge of a lost love is better to have never experienced it at all. in my heart mc could theoretically break out and come back as well (delusional)
kuna'a. oh god i think this is probably my favourite tragic ending narratively because the whole world technically gets saved and yet. and yet. at what cost. i think imo to me unlike the rest it's moreso tragic because of knowing what could have happened between kuna'a and mc had they had more time. given mc had just begun to show them a better life without vengeance and moving on from loss (finally giving them back tar).... mc too just missing out on sol's meeting.... it's however very gratifying that wherever they are kuna'a gets to atleast stay with mc in their flower form. together but never actually. fuck
druk - yes he's technically dead and at peace but he can never fucking die. what the hell this is actually so horror coded of mc's powers because of how bastardised they've become. to me what ranks this as one of the worst halfis the knowledge that druk died fighting but at what cost. to be preserved in such a horrific manner because mc was so close to saving them? the horror aspect of it being such a twisted version of a form of idolatry especially considering it's druk one of the probably most bubbly and easygoing characters in the whole story makes it even more tragic
fenir. fenir fenir fenir my shayla fenir when i read his pov i actually start sobbing he sounds so scared and so lost throughout it to live as a subhuman never able to fully capture the world (especially for someone like fenir who's whole schtick is understanding the world) and forever live as someone without control because the one person who could help them died at their own hands.... agony. pain and suffering for everyone involved (+ i think this is the only central route in which mc directly dies/is implied to die. not good!). either way wails fenir my boy i love you sm i'm so sorry
AISA. - very unfortunately clears every route in terms of tragic ness to the point i refuse to even touch this ending with a 10 foot pole and had to replay the good route ending just to feel better. i cannot stop thinking about the whole description of the trees and flowers...... aisa tree looking for a spot to crack the barriers but never being able to reach out and grab mc because he's too selfless.... mc desperately trying to destroy the barriers they erected even as a vine of flowers in their desperation....... aisa not thinking they deserve mc enough to push them away mc not thinking they're good/strong enough to be with aisa forcing them into rashly strengthening the barriers. not to mention whole world suffering even worse too cause the barriers are still up and stronger than ever. what the fuck pain and misery and desperation aisa ending is final boss of all bad ends
anyway this is to say the angst is lovely and suffering is beautiful. i will now replay aisa marriage scene <3
A WHOLE ASS RANKING AND REVIEW
it's always interesting to see what ppl's rankings r. some ppl go kinda the more objectively tragic route (aka deaths or doomed realms) r saddest and some go for more based on emotion (what feels gut wrenching but may not involve death)