#kanade x reader

Kanade does not take care of herself—and as her partner you can't stand and watch your girlfriend wither away because of her issues and lack of self care. You know about her savior complex. You know how desperate she is to save Mafuyu—but you can’t just stand aside and let her neglect herself this way.

You often come by her house and cook her meals, making sure that she eats. Kanade insists that it’s okay, that she will make sure to eat later—but you always see right through her. After all, you're her partner, you know her better than anyone else so her words never convince you.

You start taking care of her in quiet ways—the kind she can’t argue against. A glass of water placed beside her laptop. A blanket draped over her shoulders when she forgets the heater is off. You never frame it as taking care of her; you frame it as staying with her. Kanade accepts it easier that way.

Sometimes you sit beside her while she works, not speaking, just existing. Your presence keeps her tethered to her body, to the room, to the fact that time is passing. When her shoulders tense and her breathing gets shallow, you gently remind her to pause. She listens to you more than she listens to herself.

Kanade apologizes a lot. For being “too much,” for needing reminders, for worrying you. Every time, you cup her face and tell her that loving her means wanting her alive, healthy, here. That saving people doesn’t mean sacrificing herself piece by piece. She never fully believes it—but she wants to.

On nights when exhaustion finally hits her all at once, you guide her to bed, help her change, and hold her until her breathing evens out. Kanade clings to you in her sleep, fingers curling into your shirt like she’s afraid you’ll disappear. You stay, always. Because if she’s going to keep trying to save the world, someone has to save her.

× This guy changed up and grabbed some snacks from the kitchen to surprise you when he comes back

× So he is kinda surprised to hear you singing while he wasnt there, a sweet smile forming in his lips, happy to have such a cute couple

× He would just spy on you in the doorframe until you notice him, he would leave a small laugh if you got scared

"My father, my universe

절벽 위 그 끝에 선

My father, my-....RUI!?" - It scared the shit out of you seeing all of the sudden a static tall figure on the door

"Aw, be careful honey...i wouldnt like you bitting your tongue from the flinch"

× Since he went away to take a shower while you worked, he would convice you to sing as a break while he continues the project

× Hearing your voice soothes him so much that he wouldnt mind finishing the project alone if it means listening to you sing ‘Sweet Dreams’ over and over again

× When you end your practices he would give you a kiss in the forehead with praises on how youre such a good singer, the blush that creeps on your cheeks just push him to continue with a small teasing

"Okay- Rui, lemme continue with..." - You cutted his teasing since it was making you blush and feel more warm than you could handle, but he quickly talked over you again

"No no sweetheart, you already did a lot for the project. Just continue singing while i finish this, alright?"

× Probably leaves a weird comment but he doesnt notice it could come as weird, he just thinks of it with the love he feels for you

"I should leave a robot that records you while im not here...so i can hear you singing even when were not together!"

× Dramatically offended, like- HOW YOU DARE TO SING WHILE THEY ARENT PRESENT??

"Ruler of my heart, ruler of my heart..."

"Yeah, youre NOT ruling my heart right now, youre destroying it with this betray!" - You hear a dramatic certain person interrupting you in the background

× Dont let them fool you, they were probably spying on you since a while, but didnt say anything because their heart was melting from hearing their cute couple sing and just be perfect and ughhh-

× Genuinely, you will have to give them a small concert as an apology bcs they love your voice so much!! you betrayed them!!

× Would tease you cheering you up like if it was a real concert, loves when they see a blush creeping on your usual calm expression

"Go! go! reader! go!! Youre my bias wuuuh!!"

"It's just sweet dream, 오늘이야...Mizuki shut up..."

"Woah! I dont remember that being on the song!!"

× The project was forgotten long ago since Mizuki wanted to have a lovey dovey moment with their couple, they can resist it!! Youre like- so cute, just like a doll!

× at the end, you convice them of continuing the project by promising to sing them when you two were about to go to sleep

"Fiiineee, but sing for me too while I dress you up! I'd love to see how some ribbons look on you… I think I have a dress that would look lovely on you too!!"

× Even if this girl doesnt assist to school and just does it online, she wanted to help you with a project where your partner leaved you alone because they were sick

× She tried to leave home and failed succesfully, so you had to go into hers...

× It also helps her take a break from composing and find some inspiration for something new! And she’s happy that you’re here to remind her when to eat and take care of her.

× She is kinda surprised when she comes back and hears you singing while she wasnt around. She isnt mad or anything tho, when you notice her on the door she just has a small smile on her face

"Is that the new song you told me you had to practice...?"

× Conviced you to continue singing while doing the project because she loves the way your voice soothes her up, the warm feeling she feels when you sing is something she wants to recreate with her songs

× While you sing doing the project, she would randomly stand up because the inspiration hitted her and her obsession with composing songs camed back, it never leaved..

"아마 내게 아침은 오지 않을 거야... Kanade?"

"Ah... Sorry, reader, inspiration hit me thanks to you— give me a moment and I’ll help you later if you need," - she would say to you with a gentle smile, which made you nod. It wasnt the first time Kanade had done this— she kinda gets inspired when you sing in Korean.

× Entering her room after a while, you find the surprise that she composed a beat inspired on your gentle tone, she would just smile at you kinda embarassed but still trying to remain with a calm expression

"You inspire me a lot, is it ok if i use this for N25? is the first time in a while i made such a soothing beat..."

× Ena would be amused to hear you sing when she comes back, as Mizuki— she would pretend to be a little offended but not too dramatically

"Was it necessary for me to leave the room so you could sing..? - She leaves a sigh but the clear smile on her face tells a whole different story from her being mad

× Wouldnt mind doing the project while you sing, after all she thinks you two have plenty of time to finish it

× She probably got distracted sketching you while you sing, its just— youre too cute to not be used as a muse! She wouldnt show you the drawings tho, too much embarassment to handle..

× Same goes for taking pictures of you when you dont expect it, probably sends it to Akito just to tease him on how she got a couple before him

"My savior, 가련한 영혼이여

I don’t believe. you are a liar..." - The sound of a picture being taken distracts you - Did you just snap a photo of me?? delete it! - You say with a gentle smile but a hint of embarassment is in your face

"Whaatt?? no, i didnt. Stop saying nonsense." - She exclaims with a frown while sending the photo to Akito with a little message included: "Die alone while i enjoy time with my couple!!"

"Is this because i ate your cheesecake...? dramatic aah" - Akito would respond after like five hours of practice

× Just like with Mizuki, you two got distracted taking pictures with filters and sharing a moment together instead of working on the project— so now, you have to stay up late to finish it!!

"Dont worry, i always stay up until late so we wont have a big problem ending it. Just dont wake me up early tomorrow..."

Ichika Hoshino

-will buy gifts for you, not just normal sized gifts but BULKS, she'll try to get her hands on the new merch of your current interests and give it to you

-she prefers to spend christmas all cozy and warm, watching movies while drinking hot choco is her ideal christmas date

-likes putting up decorations, she sometimes lets you help and would even invite her friends to help the both of you out!

-isn't really good when it comes to wrapping gifts.. she uses a bag to hide her gifts and even if she does try and wrap one it will not look good..

-if you give her a gift, she'll be really suprised, she would stop talking and just crash like a computer

"Merry christmas y/n! I brought you this plush you told me about a month or so.. hehe.. im glad you like it.." she chuckles, she then looks surprised to see you giving her a gift "i-is this the limited edition hatsune miku christmas plushie..? W-where and how did you get your hands on this..? Thank you y/n!" She smiles, hugging the plush with a smile

Minori Hanasato

-will use christmas as an opportunity for her livestreams! Not just any livestreams but she'll go live right now at your place! Along with her friends ofcourse

-before starting the stream she helps you out with the decorations, making sure to go extra on them

-will buy gifts for everyone, if shes running out of money? Handmade gifts!

-will make sure everyone is dressed up! Especially cute christmas themes outfits

-will invite you to her stream, and would also include you when it comes to gift exchanging or secret santa. Its practically exchanging gifts with mmj + one!

-giving minori a gift is quite chaotic, she'll squeal alot and maybe even hug you til you cant breath, she may even show it to her fans and would unknowingly show off her gifts from time to time

"Merry christmas everyone! So i actually got y/n this and here, take this! I saw you looking at that snow globe while buying gifts and i knew you deserved it! It comes with a cute rabbit see?" She exclaims, as she opens her eyes, a look of surprise was quickly plastered onto her face "y-y/n..?! Y-you got me this vintage haruka merch..?! I'm gonna cherish it forever!!" She squeals.

Kohane Azusawa

-spending christmas day with her is quite...exhausting.. she'll take you to parks, shows, malls, and even her practice if theres still much time

-she'll first take you to a wxs show, then to the mall where you both buy yourselves some gifts and outfits, if she still has energy, she'll then take you to weekend garage and have you watch her and the group practice

-if you prefer to stay inside during christmas day, no biggie, kohane can also do that and adjust things for you! She'll put on a movie and cuddle with you, bake a cake or just simply spending time with you

-giving kohane a gift is a cute mess, she'll blush easily and maybe even try to ask if youre sure, not because she's rude or anything but because its too much for her to handle, still she'll happily accept it

"Merry christmas y/n! Here i got you this phenny plush.. it has this happy expression which reminded me of you.. and its big so you could hug it as if its real" she smiled, as her eyes landed on the gift you gave her, she gasps, then chuckled a bit. "Hehe! It looks like we both got each other the same gift, and it looks like this one has a shy expression.. do i really look like that.?" She murmurs to herself

Tsukasa Tenma

-tsukasa spends his christmas as wonderful as ever, ofcourse, he'll make a special show on phoenix wonderland about something christmasy, he'll ofcourse make you sit backstage or on the front, wherever you like

-once the show is done he would take you out to christmas shops where they would sell christmas gifts, foods and even santa merch

-he would then invite you to his place where you can celebrate christmas with him and his family. You both would end up baking and making ginger bread houses, ofcourse.. tsukasa's gingerbread is flashy

-what else is flashy? His house, once you step inside its decorated to the core with christmas decorations, tsukasa really likes to go all out with this..

-when you give tsukasa a gift, he'll get flustered easily but ofcourse, he would try to hide it. He'll also display your gifts and show it off to his friends, big or small you'll find that gift next to him in bed.

"Merry christmas y/n! I brought you this nightlight that i know you would love, look it can change colors and such!" He explains with a smile, as he looks at his gift he almost passed out. "HAAAH?!! Y-you got me this plushie of myself?! You even made the whole thing.." he exclaims happily" "ohoho, ofcourse i love it, what more could a star want than a plush of himself right? Next time we have a show, mini kasa shall make an appearance!"

Kanade Yoisaki

-kanade prefers her christmas day to be cozy, if you invite some people in sure, she doesnt mind

-if you do like going out, you'll probably spend your christmas dinner at some diner, specifically one that sells ramen

-kanade gets cold very easily, so if you two were ever walking around in some snowy area, make sure to bring an extra jacket incase she gets cold again

-kanade loves making something, so most of her gifts would probably be handmade goods.

-what kanade loves more is to make something with you, if you suggested youd want to make a gingerbread house, she'll agree, consider it as an accident since kanade doesnt usually make foods so the house will surely be messy

-giving kanade a gift would be a sight to see, its not everyday she receives one so she'll be a little hesitant when taking it, she'll blush slightly and would keep thanking you and how she's gonna cherish it

AKITO

"What are you doing?" Akito suddenly asked gruffly, staring down at you while you sat in loneliness at an abandoned shady alleyway.

"..." No response, Akito expected that, he sighed heavily before walking down the stairs and sitting beside you.

"Are you in a bad mood?" Once more, Akito asked another question, this time he expected you to reply.

"No." Your voice was monotonous, particularly unexpressive. However, soon, that stoic and unexpressive facial expression you had, cracked slowly into a warm smile.

Akito's eyes widened slightly, his lips parted a bit.

"I'm glad that you were looking for me..."

Akito got flashed. That smile, paired with your ocean-like eyes, the gruff boy couldn't muster a reply as he could only stare in wonder, despite the blinding light you radiated.

"Tch..." Akito clicked his tongue and looked away, not because of the rampant emotions inside his heart, rather... you're too bright for him.

A moth drawn to a flame he was.

"This is one of your spots right? I just guessed that you were going to go here."

"Your intuition's sharp." Akito commented.

"Akito... is much more clingy than he thinks he is."

"I'M NOT CLINGY!"

TOYA

"Do your fingers hurt?" You asked Toya, he tilted his head, confused... and yet a sense of warmth washed over him when you noticed that fact.

"N-... Yes." Toya pondered about lying, but ultimately, he couldn't lie under your deep gaze.

Unexpressive, yet warm, distant yet so close... Toya couldn't describe the aura you emanated. He wants to understand it, to understand how exactly do you do this to him?

"I see." You gently grabbed his hands, placing your soft and delicate fingers on his and started rubbing Toya's fingers, massaging them with slow movements.

Toya didn't respond. "You don't have to-"

"No, this isn't entirely selfless... You seem so bothered sometimes, I wanted to understand you." You replied back, halting what Toya would say and he made a heavy sigh.

"Bothered...?" Toya wanted you to clarify, and so you did.

"You... seem so bothered, as if something's burdening you."

Toya's eyes widened when he saw your unexpressive face crack into a small smile. "Oh..."

"You don't have to say what it is to me, but... I want to understand you... Open up more to me will you? I don't want you to betray yourself anymore."

... Toya's blood froze and he could only stare in shock, those words. Were... He couldn't describe it, but he felt happy, he felt euphoric even.

Toya couldn't croak out a reply, just a small hmm... And looking away with a red hue on his cheeks.

KANADE

(marry me pls)

"This isn't it, none of this is it..." Kanade softly said while glaring at her monitor with a determined yet fragile expression.

It earned a frown from you.

"... I can't save others with thi-" Kanade suddenly felt a tug on her hand, her left arm was raised up involuntary as from the shadows of her room, you sprang out and had a frown on your face.

"What are you doing?"

A few seconds of silence, gazing at the ground, Kanade finally calmed down. "I..."

"Music that can save people, isn't composed by having frustration in the heart." You added on, and Kanade continued to stare at the ground with pursed lips.

Your grip on her left arm loosened up causing the smaller girl to place her arms on her lap.

You sighed before patting her head, warmth infiltrated Kanade's body, her heartbeat hastened, her hand crept up to hold her chest, trying to calm down her rampaging heart.

"Come on, let's try again, this time I'll help you." You sat beside her, and stared at the monitor.

Perhaps composing a love song... isn't bad for now? Especially when right now, there's a light so bright beside her, she can see where the path is now...

MAFUYU

Silence, silence... Perhaps some crow noises would fit between the two of them.

"So what are your interests? What do you want to do?" Wearing a fake smile, Mafuyu gazed towards you, who was silently gazing at the mall, a bit overwhelmed.

"..." No response from you.

Mafuyu scratched her cheek a bit awkwardly. "You're overwhelmed?... You don't go outside often?"

You suddenly frowned. "You're bad at lying."

"Huh?" Surprised, Mafuyu tilted her head, she started sweating a bit. "Wh-what?"

"You're bad at lying."

"... I... What do you mean..?"

"You're bad at lying."

"I heard you the third time."

"Yes, literally what I mean, what are you hiding? I'd rather have someone say their true feelings, rather than mask a fake smile... and talk to me with fake positivity."

"... I found you."

Mafuyu's eyes widened and she suddenly felt tears welling up on her eyes. You found her? Found... her?

"At least now, your game of hide and seek is over, Mafuyu."

Mafuyu didn't know, how relieving it was for someone to notice, for someone to find her, despite her continuous descend to madness.

"..." That smile, that smile you have right now, Mafuyu could only stare in shock and silence. Fuzzy, she feels so... happy right now.

"You can tell me everything... But if you can't then..." You finally reached for her head and started patting her. "I'll always wait."

Kanade Yoisaki composed hope.

She twisted and plucked the waves of sound, using her music itself as an instrument in its own right. All the melancholy tones in her creations felt comfortable... familiar.

Her melodies were a bow to the violin that was your heart, willing it to embrace the dismal nostalgia that you often felt seeping out of the vacuous gap in the back of your throat.

When you first met, she recalls it even now, there was a fire within. You spoke with a will, with a spark. Determination as you fought against the spirit eroding inside the cavity called the chest — she admired it.

If she closes her eyes, she can still hear your voice. The way you sounded on the phone, lovingly singing her praises; the way you sounded face-to-face, asking her to save you from yourself; the way you sound now, silent.

Before, on the worst days, your microphone vibrated with white noise, the only evidence of life being a file dropped in the chat. She always missed hearing your voice then, but she would even take the sound of your bedroom over your silence now.

In her moments of fond clarity, she finds your voice seeping in, osmosing through her head with bleary memories of your modest romance.

"Kanade," you would call out to her, "how about this one? Forget-me-nots. Don't you think they would look pretty on the drawing that Ena's been working on?"

She knew nothing about plants, but she would recognise the myosotis flower anywhere. It felt like a final message, almost. A parting memory for her to dwell on and find comfort in the nostalgia.

Don't forget me, she could imagine you saying. Remember me when I disappear.

She had hoped to save you before you slipped from her grasp, burning through her keys with fervour as she searched for the tune of your heart.

It wasn't enough, though.

It never was.

Her father, you, and the rest of her circle. She would fail everyone she cared for.

Slowly, she began to wear down, splinters of doubt breaking her polish. Nothing was enough. It would never be enough. No matter how perfect the piece would be, humans were what played music — not the other way around.

Hope fell dry, and psalms became requiems. With her last morsel of hope, she reached out blindly, hoping to the universe that her prayers would be answered.

25:00 a.m.

"Hey... are you doing okay?

We haven't seen you in a while. I don't know if you want to hear my voice, but I want you to know that I love you.

I'm sorry I couldn't do more to help you, but if you're still there, can you call me back?

We miss you a lot. We— we don't even have to talk about anything... just you being there would help.

I don't know if you saw them, but I sent you some flowers too. Forget-me-nots, just like that drawing Ena made for you.

If there's anything I can do... just call me back, alright?"

This was short snfjshdkdj whatever

however, once you tremble and cry out, she doesn’t turn the vibe down. she turns it up. then, it turns into “i won’t stop until you cum again.” the wand whirrs, loud and menacing as she grinds the head of it against your pulsating clit. “you’re sensitive now, yes?” but she doesn’t actually need an answer. she can tell by the way your hips start to buck and jut up off the bed in protest at the high-speed toy and it’s merciless buzzing. “it should be easy to make you cum a second time, now that you’re so swollen. let’s see if you can even give me a third.”

you cum again in a matter of moments, and a third shortly after. it was as if every orgasm you never experienced had been simmering, just under the surface, and it was kanade and her mind-melting toys that could coax them to boil over— the intensity of the back to back climaxes overloading your brain, and you cry out and beg her to stop. “too much!”

“i’ve had enough!”

“kanade, please, stop, i’m going crazy!”

it soon becomes, “i’m not stopping until you can’t form words anymore.” you’ve cum at least twice more since she said this, and your thighs quake so hard that she’s had to resort to tying you down to the bed to keep you from trying to crawl away. “they’re all mine,” she mutters, partially to herself, when she tosses the toy she was using on you aside. the wand had been retired, and then the bullets and the eggs, the slick dildo that smelled of your arousal still laying haphazardly on the pillow beside your face, strings of drool tethering from your lips to it where you’d already taken it in more than one hole.

your eyes are glassy. your moans are breathless and broken.

it’s still not enough. not for kanade, who wanted to break you completely and own the pieces that were left.