#just.... yeah

It took one reblog. I commented to said person, said you are correct, and I deleted the post, and answered an ask apologizing. Then I apologized again and asked for it to be deleted from other blogs.

It didn't take a fandom for me to realize how insensitive and poor taste that was. It was one person and I thanked them for calling me out, as I rightfully deserve.

I'm embarrassed and feel like shit for hurting people with my idiocy. I messed up. I feel terrible and I understand--now-- why this hurt and how it could be seen. I did not realize that at the time, but now I do.

I'm an imperfect person and I learn from every mistake I make. Just because this is online doesn't mean I won't learn. I will.

You can keep talking shit about me. I deserve it. Think whatever you want of me, I can't change your minds. I can only change my own behavior and be better in the future, starting now. You can believe me or not. But I know what I'm going to do.

I'd ask you, if you reblogged the post/screenshot to delete it so we can stop spreading that shit around. If you do want to and want to keep me accountable for a foolish, hurtful mistake I immediately apologized for, then you can. I won't fault you.

But I am truly sorry and apologize to the fandom; but especially those who were deeply hurt by me. I am sorry. I truly am. Even if we have differences, I am upset with myself in so many ways. Angry. Disappointed. Furious. Sad. Hurt.

There's things I'll make a joke out of to defend myself.

This isn't one of those times.

I messed up, and I'm sorry for any pain I caused. It wasn't my intention... but that doesn't matter. It happened. Intentions don't matter when people get hurt.