am i doing enough? am i doing it right?

halfway through

the stack of homework i can’t finish tonight

are you still proud of me?

though i’ve fallen from grace

am i still beautiful with all this shit on my face?

do you want more from me

than what i already am?

will you still sit with me if I tell you I can’t?

i waste my time writing this

and feeling like a lost cause

feel like i’m the one booing over all the applause

smart girl

kind girl

“fine” not really fine girl

straight girl

strong girl

do you even try at all girl?

if i live up to what you ask of me

is it something you’d even see

if i could ever do enough

would you give me more, call it “tough love”?

every week feels like a year

and every slumber twenty seconds

blame it on my low attention span

and all my screwy methods

i can never stop trying all the way again

cause i’d lose all my passion and all of my friends

can’t afford to start over

only keep moving on

i seem to run so much

i don’t know what i’m running from

and will the hardships take that from me too?

i’m not living loud enough

so everyone tells me I'm through

something in me says, keep walking

smile as if you're still alive

some fighter spirit keeps me going

maybe soon I'll learn to thrive

and so close to something but so far away

my heart has begged so many people to stay

if i could write a poem called

sorta somewhat like okay

if i could get a streak going

happy day after happy day

but i’m three years into high school

and every day is just the same

i say i’m gonna work hard

and then i play video games

cause i’ll never be the girl everyone wants

so why even try to be something i’m not

i’m sleep deprived with no tears left to cry

and i’m fine for now

but i knew something so profound

hi jess, it’s nice to hear from you! i don’t think i’ve ever pulled an all-nighter, is that weird?🤔

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1. Clara - No te va gustar

2. Messed up kids - Jake Bugg

3. Upside down - Paloma Faith

4. Grew up at midnight - The Maccabees

5. Chasing cars - Snow Patrol

6. El poeta dice la verdad - La Trampa

7. Give me love - Ed Sheeran

8. What you know - Two Door Cinema Club

9. We come running - Youngblood Hawke

10. Another love - Tom Odell