Full-time Publicist & Full-time Mom: The Balancing Act
As many of you know, I had a baby in May. Since I announced that I was becoming a mother, I have received many private questions and e-mails asking me a) if I was returning to work full time, and b) if I could share how you balance a career in PR with being a mother if I did decide to return to work. So, this post is for those wondering how you can have and do it all as someone who works in the very demanding field of PR.
After a blissful mat leave, I did return to work full-time. It was not easy going back, and you might think it would be because, in all honesty, being a new mom makes PR look like a walk in the park, but one of the hardest decisions a mother has to make is whether or not she’ll return to work. The idea of leaving my infant son with “a stranger” 9 hours a day to only see him for maybe 2 hours a day was gut wrenching, and I was sick over it for a while. But then I spoke to other moms (the best network for a new mom is other moms btw) who shared their experiences about returning to work, and their support and encouragement made the idea an easier pill to swallow.
I, of course, cried my eyes out the morning of my first day back, but there was also something nice about swapping out my Gap Body for some DVF and a diaper bag for my favorite navy Prada, putting on some makeup and getting a blowout. I felt like myself again—or more like the career-minded woman I was before I had a baby.
Days 1, 2 and 3 are like homecoming week. Lots of catching up with friends and everyone is excited to have you back (or so they say) and you’re actually, dare I say, happy to be back. Yes, I checked my phone every 10 minutes for pics of my boy, but it was nice to feel like a semblance of myself again. Then week 2 comes along, and the reality of being back settles in, and it is hard. I cried more that week than the previous week. It also takes a minute to get your head back in the game. You are overwhelmed with catching up while trying to keep up in real time while also worrying about and missing your child terribly. As each day goes by, it does get easier, but I still have those moments when I miss him so much it hurts, and I always wonder if I am doing the right thing.
I personally feel like it will be good for my son to see his mother working, or maybe that is what I tell myself to make myself feel better about the fact that I really have no choice. However, the balancing act is definitely a tough one. I have always had the stance that you cannot have it all, but could never speak from experience because I didn’t have my own family until 5 months ago. Now I know it to be true. It is very hard to find true balance between being a mother and working full-time in an office. It is more like a see saw—when career is up, family is down, and vice versa. What does help is good planning, keeping a calendar of all important dates or times when you need coverage at work or home so everyone is clear. I schedule breakfasts and lunches with editors as opposed to dinner or drinks so that my evenings are saved for bath time and bed time. I also leave earlier than I used to, but I am back on e-mail after my son goes to bed. Maybe you can have it all theoretically speaking, but just not all at once.
All that being said, I still do battle with a constant inner struggle. I don’t feel like I am 100% at being a mom or being a publicist. However, I am working my ass off at both. And I am also lucky enough to have people around me both at home and at work who understand and can help. Help is crucial. I need my husband and nanny, and I need my team at work. In order to find the balance, you need to be okay with asking for and accepting as much help as you can get.
So, I guess my long-winded answer to how do you find balance between motherhood and work is that I have yet to, but I am doing my best. And I have adopted Sheryl Sandberg’s mantra: Done is better than perfect. Amen.