Learning to Live

- therapy 9/5/24

*mindblown*

Like I’ve been split in half

And I’m trying to grab hold

Of my other half and stop

Myself from floating away

Do I still exist?

How do you tell

How do you know what is

I couldn’t get to the gym in time.

So I went for a run and I thought you know what, I’m going to just keep going. And I did. I looped my first 10k in 3.5 years. In hindsight I feel I could have little bit harder and made it to 12 but I’ll take my 10.

Just giving myself a mental pat on the back because i did something instead of giving up today.

On one hand, my fears are recognised and validated, I haven’t been imagining it, I haven’t made it up or pushed my own views onto her blindly.

I know deep down that doesn’t make her any less, like it doesn’t make me any less. Just different and different is okay.

But my whole life I have been nothing but different and I don’t want the for her.

Ive hit a wall.