#juanton

About nine months ago my life took a turn for the worst. I had just got out of a very toxic relationship and I let that be the reason why I let my life fall apart. I’ll be honest though. I think I needed that.  I was putting all my anger towards that and it only made things worse.  I one day realized that I can’t put all the blame on just that.  I thought and accepted that I had just as much blame if not more for why a lot of things happened.  I owned up to my mistakes and stopped blaming others for why things were the way they were.

I told myself that I had to stop letting one relationship define the rest of my life. What’s in the past is in the past and honestly fuck whatever is there now. It may sound cocky as hell but I still got a whole lot of life to experience. Yeah I may have fucked up so many things but what can I do now. What’s done is done and I can’t do anything to change that.

Everything takes time.  I had the hardest time being patient at first but seeing myself now and all the shit that is slowly falling back into place gives me hope.  It does get better; my life has been so much better since.  I’ve learned some weird shit about myself in the process, which has been super dope.