31. In awe, the first time you realised it
Theron watched as Kira left the old abandoned Jedi Temple on Coruscant. Ā They had agreed to meet here for a few brief moments and she had promised data on the Eternal Empire, the new enemy that threatened the galaxy. Ā Sheād returned his red jacket to him, that heād left on the Defender the last time heād seen Jyana, er⦠the Jedi Battlemaster. T7 remained behind, apparently upon Jyanaās own request, to stay and work with Theron in case anything had happened to her.
āTheron = Loved her?ā
He blinked. Ā He didnāt realize he had buried his nose in the collar of his jacket and closed his eyes for a few minutes. Ā He could brush it off as heād just really missed his red coat. The leather felt still warm and loved, a bit of security in how it fit around him. Ā But there was a lingering scent there that wasnāt his that he was drawn to, that he couldnāt truly avoid.
What did a droid know about feelings anyway?
But he couldnāt just dismiss what T7 had questioned. Ā The poor droid had lost his closest friendtoo. Ā And it was her wish that they help each other. Ā T7 definitely had skills the SIS could use as well as some previous experience working with them. Ā
Theron looked down at the droid and gave him a small smile and patted him on his dome. Ā He couldnāt really find the words to respond to him, but the droid didnāt really push the issue either.
āThe Director needs me in an hour. Ā You said you had some data from the attack on Darth Marrās ship?ā
T7 beeped his confirmation, though the beep wasnāt the typical cheerful tone Theron had gotten used to when they worked together on Ziost. Ā When he thought T7 was trying to keep his spirits up for the most part.
As they moved towards the speeder heād come here on, which thankfully was equipped to take on an astromech droid, his mind kept wandering back to that question. Ā T7 helped himself to his spot and Theron straddled the speeder and fiddled with the controls. Ā He hesitated for a few moments, rubbing his nose again against the collar of his jacket.
He did love her. Ā Her scent, her smile, the way the color red adorned her ears when heād embarrassed her somehow. Ā Maybe he had loved her since she waltzed into the briefing room on Carrick Station when they were about to send her to Korriban or since she rampaged through the lab on Manaan when heād thought she was nearly lost to him that first time. Ā Or how she had nearly torn down the Revanite facility on Rishi to rescue him. Ā Or those private moments in his shuttle on Yavin and then later on her ship months after Ziostās demise. Ā
He shook his head and started the speeder. Ā Kira was certain she was still alive. Ā Kira had promised that if Jyana was in any way able to, sheād come back to him. Theron felt himself holding onto those words, terrified to even have hope. Ā Maybe that small sliver of hope could keep him going forward. It wasnāt the first time heād lost someone who cared for him, that he cared for. Ā It wasnāt going to be the last.
He did love her, but she was gone. Ā And he had work to do.