[2:18 A.M.] you were crying. thank god your boyfriend, johnny, was there to support you. you never knew what you would do without him. the idea that you never knew him at one point in your life seemed almost unbelievable. but, here he was, comforting you.

"hey, it's gonna be okay. as long as you're here with me, it's gonna be okay." he's saying to you.

"but you're not gonna be here tomorrow. you have to go on tour." you say through tears.

"i'll miss you a lot. we can call sometime." johnny says, hugging you for the umpteenth time.

"i'll miss you more." you say.

"no, really, i'll miss you more." he says.

"actua–" you were interrupted by mark walking in, not knowing he was interrupting something.

"seriously, mark," johnny says.

"oops. just here to tell you you have to start packing up." and then mark leaves.

Last week, your friend Taeyong told you about his roommate Johnny, who was apparently interested in getting to know you. Trusting your friend, you agreed but didn't really know what to expect; you had never dated anyone in your life and the tall boy standing in front of you made your cheeks go red and your hands clammy.

“Wanna grab a coffee? I heard they sell some pastries too,” he suggested, gesturing the coffee shop on your right. You thought it was a great idea to go for a walk as your first date since it was Sunday morning and warm outside.  “Let’s go,” you grinned, your heart beating faster when he grabbed your hand, making his way towards the building.

Johnny opened the door and let you in, your hand still in yours. You started looking up at the choice and you squinted your eyes, your poor vision preventing you from seeing well. Johnny noticed your furrowed brows and he lowered his head to be at your level.

“Do you need any help?” his proximity surprised you and you nodded, an embarrassing grin making its way on your lips. You started observing him as he read you the options, almost neglecting what he was saying. “A cappuccino and a lemon cheesecake sound good to me,” you said as Johnny stepped a bit forward. It was almost your turn and you started to feel very hot. You hoped that he didn’t feel your hand going hot and clammier, but at the same time you wished he did, because you hated ordering. 

He noticed your face going blank as the cashier’s “hi, can I get your order?” was directly destined for you. You started stuttering but he got the upper hand and ordered your food without any hesitation.

“Thank you,” you said as you waited with him, not too far from the counter, a shy smile on your face. “You don’t need to thank me for this,” he laughed while taking some napkins on the container. “I couldn’t let you struggle like that.” “Let’s say I’m not really good at interacting with people I don’t know,” you placed a falling strand of hair back behind your ear before sinking your hands in the pockets of your jacket. His hand grabbed your forearm and pulled you closer to him with a soft smile on his face. “I think you’re doing a pretty good job with me so far, but I can help you with that if you want to,” he suggested and let you go as he noticed the barista putting a lid on your cups. “Thank you,” you smiled as Johnny handed you your cup and watched the waiter who was giving your pastries to him in a small white box. She had a big smile on her face and her eyes yelled attraction to your date. He politely smiled and immediately came back towards you, totally ignoring her. 

“I have the pastries, let’s go?” He gave you the white box and you smiled as he made his way to the door. When you closed the door behind you, you noticed the waitress who was attracted to Johnny looking at you with piercing eyes, clearly unhappy that her precious moment with him got ruined. You just smiled and left to join your date.

Johnny was waiting for you outside and took a sip of his warm drink, slightly grimacing at the bitter taste. You walked together in the peaceful streets, enjoying this great moment together. He was someone really easy to talk to and he made you feel very comfortable, almost feeling like that you were out with a friend and not on a date. When you reached his car, he unlocked it and held the door open for you. You blushed and quickly sat on the passenger seat after putting the white box on the surface under the windscreen. Johnny made his way to the driver seat and closed his door. Turning on the radio, he searched for a good station as you opened the lid of the white box. Your cheesecake and his chocolate éclair looked absolutely mouth-watering. Johnny started driving as you ate your pastry, talking about everything and nothing. You wiped your hands with a napkin once you were done and slowly took the chocolate éclair out of the box. You moved a bit in your seat and Johnny quickly glanced at you. You approached the pastry near his mouth and giggled at your current position.

“Open,” you said between laughs and he took a big bite, almost missing your finger. “Hey, I want to keep my fingers!” you nudged his arm and he wiped a bit of chocolate from the corner of his mouth with his thumb. “Oh really? I thought you were included, because you definitely look like a snack to me,” you gasped at his flirty words, eyes widening as you noticed his smug smile. “Johnny!” you laughed as he gestured you to give him another bite. “What?” He feigned innocence, biting even closer to your hand. “I’m sure you’d taste sweeter than this éclair.” “Stop it,” you said more seriously, your cheeks burning hot. “Oh no I won’t,” he teased after swallowing his bite, “if I get to see your beautiful blushing face when I tease you, then I’ll never stop.” you huffed at his words, biting your lower lip as you looked out the window.

He stopped at a red light and took the pastry from your fingers, eating the remainder in one bite. You quickly glanced at him and he smiled, resting his hand on top of yours. He grabbed it, bringing it to his mouth and laid a soft kiss on top of it.

“I hope you know that I don’t say this only to make you happy,” he said as he started driving again, your hand still in his, “if you are willing to give us a try, I promise I’ll make you as happy as I can and we’ll go at your pace, I promise. That’s something that I wanted to tell you.” “So, you’re serious about it? You really want to date me?” “Yeah, why shouldn’t I?” He questioned, briefly looking at you. “I don’t know, there are tons of girls out there that are more beautiful than me,” you stated as you noticed the national park coming insight. “But I don’t care about the other girls,” he frowned at your words, letting go of your hand, a gesture that made you look at him.

“I only want you,” he said as he parked the car. “I want to show you that you are worth of love and capable of loving too.” “You’re willing to give me all of this?” You questioned as the rays of sunshine suddenly appeared behind a cloud, which made you feel hotter. No one has ever told you this kind of things before, so you were quite dumbfounded and unsure. “Only if you let me,” Johnny answered, unfastening his seat belt after cutting off contact. He got closer to you and grabbed your chin with his thumb. He smiles and your eyes fluttered as you expected his lips to touch yours, but he swiftly moved his head to kiss your cheek.

[ 38: i don't think i've ever wanted anything this much before ] + [ 54: i can’t keep doing this ]

the prompts

“i can’t keep doing this” you told jaehyun, leaving your things reluctantly on the table.

“what happened this time?”

“nothing, that’s the problem” you groaned, raising your head and resting it on your arms, looking at your friend. “i swear it’s like he’s blind. like he’s wearing this glasses that block him to realize how i act around him”

“i know the feeling” jaehyun commented distractedly and ran his fingers through your arm comfortingly. “you can’t keep going on like this”

“i know. but i can’t tell him the truth either”

“just an idea, but” he lifted his hands, you looked at him concentratedly and nodded for him to continue. “what if you, i don’t know, distance yourself from him for a bit?” he saw your expression fall and was quick to add. “only for some time, until you get over him. then you can go back to being friends. but this is hurting you, y/n”

you thought about what jaehyun had said for the rest of day. not talking to johnny wasn’t really on your wish list, but it was true that some time apart may help you get over him. it seemed like the only thing you could do, since he never caught on the hints you dropped. or maybe he just ignored them because he didn’t feel the same way.

“want to hit the ice cream parlor?” johnny came up to you when school ended. even though your whole body was screaming you to say yes, you closed your ears to it.

“sorry, i was thinking of going home and do some homework”

“oh” he said with a wide smile and kind eyes, like usual. “that’s fine”

“see you” you said quickly and almost ran away.

from that moment on, johnny was never able to get you alone. there was always an excuse, you running late to a place or having too much to study. if not, then you would simply be with jaehyun. all the time.

“do you think jaehyun is trying to hit on her?” he asked to his friends one day at lunch. seeing how you, only some tables away, laughed loudly at something the boy had said. you used to always give johnny that smile.

“dude, he's been in love with her for ages” yukhei commented, as if it was the most obvious thing ever. for johnny, it wasn't.

“did he tell you?”

“he didn't need to” he said and drank some of his soda. “i think you just never seem to notice when someone is in love”

“what's that suppossed to mean?” johnny asked defensively.

“nothing”

time passed and the only thing johnny could do was admire you from afar. you looked happy, but he didn't understand what he had done wrong. you were his best friend, he learned so much about you and now he felt like something had been taken away from him. was jaehyun a better friend? was he not enough?

at ten's house party he saw you again. it had been too long since he saw you in an ambience other than the school corridors. you were dancing with jaehyun, beaming. johnny couldn't explain it, but when he fixed his eyes on you, you stood out more than anyone in the room. everyone seemed faded but you, who had a golden and bright emanation.

that radiance held him captive, and soon he was making his way through the living room, you blinding him with your glow while he got closer.

“y/n” you pulled away from the other boy, staring at johnny perplexedly. “can we talk?”

“she's busy, buddy” jaehyun said the name in a contemptuous voice. johnny tightened his fists.

“what if you let her answer first?”

you took quick glances to both of the guys, focusing on jaehyun's pleading eyes.

“i'll be right back” you nodded to jaehyun, disillusion all over his face as he took a step back.

you followed johnny outside, where the whole atmosphere was more toned down.

his hair was longer, and you wondered how much time it had been since you last talked.

“are you with jaehyun?” he asked, not averting his gaze from you.

“yes, i came with him”

“i mean, are you... dating?” the word burned in his tongue.

“no” you shook your head, almost amused by the question. “why would you think that?”

“you seem close”

“sure, we're friends”

“we used to be friends too” he lowered his head, smiling at the sight of your untied shoelaces. everyday he nagged you to tie them or you would fall, but at this moment, he had missed your habits too much to care.

you didn't reply.

“where did i go wrong?”

“you still don’t realize, do you?”

“realize what?” you sighed.

“i had to stay away from you to get over my feelings for you”

johnny's heart fell at the words.

“what?”

“you never saw how in love i was with you. it hurt, johnny. being nothing more than friends”

he took a moment to take in the information, segments of your friendship flashing through his mind as it were a movie. and now he was finally reading between the lines and metaphor devices.

“did it work?” his body got closer, and yours jumped in excitement. it had been weaned off johnny for too long.

“i thought it did” you saw a small grin creeping up his face. “i'm not so sure now”

“i really want to kiss you” you almost whimpered at that, clinging into reality, scared it was all a dream.

“you waited too long”

“i know. but i don't think i've ever wanted anything this much before” he said taking one last step before your breaths mixed. he leaned in and your noses brushed, making you feel that rush you haven't felt lately. the rush only johnny made you feel.

he held to your waist and you to his shoulders, not being able to believe this finally was taking place. you honestly thought it would never happen.

“it hurt too, seeing you with him” he said after a while of your lips meeting each other, introducing themselves and what they liked.

“i'm sorry” you giggled, still sneaking in some kisses.

“you're not” he chuckled, planting another deep kiss. “i bet you enjoy knowing you made me jealous”

“maybe a bit” you teased, johnny rolling his eyes.

“now, mrs. unrequited crush” he joked and you hit his arm. “you do realize jaehyun likes you, do you?”

“what? of course not” you felt almost attacked at the statement. you would realize if he did, right?

Imagine you were waiting for Johnny to finish his schedule out in the cool breeze of October.

He smiled widely when he saw you waiting for him but suddenly the joy on his face disappeared.

"Johnny! What's wrong?" You asked, approaching him, a bit worried.

He reached for your hands without saying a word, then his fingers traced your jawline and retreated.

He moved a step back taking off his jacket. "YOU ARE FREEZING! WHY ARE YOU WEARING ONLY THAT? Gosh..." he leaned a bit kissing your forehead and left his jacket on your shoulders and tying a knot with the sleeves on your chest.

"Perfect! My baby is all warm now! 😄"

"John, baby... I can't move." You announced.

this event was so much more formal than you were used to, you felt so out of place in amongst the crowds of people in expensive tailored suits and elegant flowing dresses. you'd tried your best to fit in, you'd stuck to the dress code, and from the outside you looked the part. but you didn't feel it, everyone seemed to just belong. they all had a certain air about them, a certain way of holding themselves, a certain way of speaking, that you assumed came with a lot of practice and possibly years of coming to events like these.

you tried your best to copy their posture, to hold your head with as much confidence as they seemed to, despite your lack of confidence in the situation, in an attempt to hide your nerves. the place was far too busy and too crowded - too crowded with people you didn't know - for you to feel comfortable.

with a small sigh, you sat down at one of the few empty tables covered with luscious silk cloths, silver plates and crystal glasses. you wanted to leave, but you knew it was important to johnny, so you stayed. you looked around for him but couldn't see where he'd got to. he'd gone to get drinks for the both of you, but you guessed he'd got caught up talked to someone.

you were just beginning to panic, and holding your hands together tightly in your lap to try to stop yourself from dropping you head into your hands as you knew that wouldn't be considered "proper" in such a place, when two drinks were set down on the table in front of you. you looked up to see johnny, and couldn't hold back the sigh of relief that left you.

he crouched down in front of you, "you alright?" he asked, clasping your hands in his to stop your nervous fidgeting.

"no," you answered weakly and honestly.

"i know it's overwhelming," he replied, offering you a small smile in an attempt at comfort, "do you think you can last just another hour? and then i promise we can get out of here."

you took a deep breath and nodded, "i'm sorry, i know this is important, and i'm trying, i really am."

"i know you are," johnny moved his hand to your shoulder, a simple yet protective, caring gesture. he sat down in the seat next to yours and handed you one of the glasses of prosecco, taking the other for himself. you took hold of the glass, and he moved his to hit yours with a light 'clink' making you smile again.

you sat for a while, feeling somewhat better now you were in johnny's presence, taking small sips of your drink.

after a moment johnny took your hand gently in his, "care to dance?"

you looked across to the centre of the room where people were dancing and hesitated for a moment, there were so many people, so many pairs of eyes, and you were still quite shaken up.

however, johnny's kind gaze told you it was all okay, so you replied, "of course."

giving your hand a soft squeeze of encouragement, he stood up and, after quickly finishing your drink, hoping the alcohol would help your confidence a little, you followed.

never letting go of your hand, johnny led you over to the dance-floor. reaching to take your other hand, he turned you to face him, swaying slightly to the classical sound of the piano.

"focus on me." he whispered, when he noticed you were still shaking, and pulled your body closer to his. tentatively, you looped your arms around his neck, and his hands fell to your waist.

Johnny never understood what people meant when they'd call a specific place or a person "home". He grew up in two different countries, both with and away from his loved ones it was hard but he dealt.

He never knew what home was until right now when he has the love of his life in his arms. The honey eyed boy finally realizes this and whispers in her ear;