#jo halbig

So, recently my friend Lydia started painting vinyl (@plattenpinsel on Instagram) and I HAD TO ask her for "@killerpilzeband through the years"

Ugh, I don't even know. I mean I've known for months that this would be the end, and I'm okay with it. What really fucked me up are the reactions of the two brothers after they played their final song.

I mean... This is a grown up man, who just realized that this was the last show for a while. And seeing someone who wrote such important lines, sung such important songs, who has been sort of my older brother for years, that just fucked me up so hard.

And Fabi was even worse. Fabi is an actor, we have seen him cry on screen, but this...

...this was no acting. And I've hardly ever wanted to hug someone as much as him in that moment. For well 2/3 of his life he's been in that band; it must be really hard to give that up.

And all these feeling just get mixed up with the absolute disbelief and euphoria of having seen Schlagi play with them. I mean, I don't expect anyone to understand what this means to me, but just... SCHLAGI FOR FUCKS SAKE!!!

So I'm just generally confused. I'm sad that it's over, determined to show myself that I can do it (life) without them, prove that the lessons they've been teaching us with their songs are valuable and helpful, I am happy for them to have the chance to do what they want without being chained to a band and fans that constantly want new content, I worry about how they are taking it (Jo and Fabi are very active on social media, but are they nostalgic or happy that they have so much support, and Mäx has only posted one picture and is completely quiet, is he okay?), absolutely ecstatic about having gotten the chance to see all four of them share a stage, and grateful for being part of such a supportive fandom.

bc they forgot it was frank’s birthday, so they quickly reunited the band

How to kill your fanbase, a guide by Killerpilze, plus Fabi's special recipe.

Most days I try to spare you guys with my personal stuff, but today is not one of these days. I've had a shitty day, people I have to do a group project with are lazy as fuck, and I'm the only one actually trying to work (hard flashback to school).

So I decided I need to do what I do best: annoy people with my love for these three men.

Trigger warning: Panic attack following...

The picture is from Friday one week ago. And the show they put on was fantastic. And I was doing shitty as fuck thanks to the girl in front of me refusing to pull her hair into a tail, as i asked her to a couple of times (bc strong perfumed hair of a stranger in my face -> agoraphobia -> panic attack).

I was literally watching one of my favourite drummers, the guitarist an arm's reach away from me, and I just stood there, second row, having a panic attack.

And the drummer was sometimes looking over and I'm certain he picked up on something being wrong.

End of the story is that once more my trust in a friend has been shattered by them not sticking to their word (entirely different story), my faith in humans has once again been dimmed, and I might finally realise that I can't trust anyone to look after me the same way I look after them (only exception might be my pink haired friend, but you live too far away).

At least I got to talk to the boys later on, and the guitarist joked around with me a little. Also neither he nor the bassist got over my shirt (their band name in the Metallica font) which I got about two years back (it was official merch, and they said they really should have made more of these shirts).

Also I was asked to take some pics of them with other fans and Fabi was fooling around so his face was hidden and I, being me, just went like "fabi, behave" (while laughing) and he was super embarrassed, mostly bc everybody else laughed too (imagine this tiny person telling on of their idols to behave, I mean... and his brother probably was just like haha, there you got it) and I only later realised that it might have come across as rude 😭 I'm pretty certain tho he understood that I wasn't intending to be mean.

also I didn't get to talk to him, which is a shame bc he's super sweet, but if he really picked up on me being off during a part of the show, it might have been for the better that we didn't talk, before he thinks about asking what happened.

Anyways.

That was my first concert of their last tour. And it's also the first time I managed to get a a picture taken with them that I actually like.

I already posted this on my private blog, but I’m still not over this, so I’ll make you read it too.

Jo (the bassist from Killerpilze) asked for our favourite lines from the new album (prepare for some crappy translation of wonderful texts)

Me: "on this world nothing is forever, because everything keeps going; I'm out of here" & "but with all the headwind we can try to take off" because I can and will not believe that I'm supposed to be stuck forever in this already three years lasting low

Jo: exactly, take off and look ahead!!

I know i haven't been shutting up about this band, but I feel terrible, Christmas is pretty much ruined for me and it's nobody's fault but my own, so I'll do what I do best: talk about bands.

The first is the front of the special limited edition "nachtronauten" t-shirt, one of exactly a hundred, that was only sold at the concert on Saturday and isn't available anywhere else. The picture is the same as on the promotion posters, and on the back there are the lyrics to the song "Nachtronauten".