#jiniisstuff

I enter the door of moonless light

Shutting the light tightly

Knowing its each and every inch

I let myself drown in wine

Running out of breath

Darklights open my eyes

Drawing  a curve on my faded smile

Decorating it with the pieces of me given to the dark

Stitching the pieces of my light

Darklights smile at me

They say I am their favorite child

I have been obedient to my darkness

Now they want to see me light

Handing me a lamp of my lights

Darklights hug me

I am their fighter

it's too soon to surrender

Its okay to visit darkness sometimes

But life should include light

Pain is not tragic. Pain is magic. Suffering is tragic. Suffering is what happens when we avoid Pain and consequently miss our becoming.

That is what I can and must avoid : missing my own evolution because I am too afraid to surrender to the process. Having such little faith in myself that I numb or hide or consume my way out of my fiery feelings again and again.

So the goal is to stop abandoning myself and - stay.

To Trust that I am strong enough to handle the pain that is necessary to the process of becoming.

Because what scares me a hell of a lot more than pain is living my entire life and missing my becoming. What scared m3 more than feeling it all is missing it all.