#iwillbecome

With depression came pretty low self esteem. I never deserved the best, and why should I? Who am I to ask for so much? To think I'm entitled to things? And now I know, I deserve the good things in life. I don''t deserve a shitty father and unhealthy friendships and depression and anxiety and all the things I've had put on my plate, just like anyone else with problems. 99 percent of the time, we are put in situations that aren't fair. But that's how life is, and yeah, it sucks. But you deserve to escape from it. You deserve to stand up for yourself and leave your broken home and break the cycles of abuse and get help and fall in love and make friends and have fun. And last but certainly not least, you deserve to know just how beautiful life can be. 

"The real question is...who decides what we deserve and what we don't?" A friend of mine wrote a letter to me that ripped me to shreds and then sewed me back together again. She talked about going through some of the things I went through just a few years ago: not feeling like you're good enough and selling yourself short because you don't think you're entitled to being treated right. And to answer her question: nobody. You are human and you are good; you deserve the best. You deserve to sing and dance and play and become great. It just is that way, and the people who really, truly love you can tell you the same. 

"We accept the love we think we deserve." As overused as this quote is, it is one of the most beautiful and true ones there is. And not just with love, but with everything. You have to be aware that you are good and you deserve greatness. And that takes time and faith and patience, but it is possible; I'm living proof. I deserve to have friends who love me and appreciate me for who I am and they deserve the same. I deserve to have a loving family and to get better and most importantly, I deserve to love myself. I worked hard for it. And you can do the same. People will know, they can tell. But if you can learn to love yourself, it won't matter.