Stims day 5 āļøš
Got a bit ahead of myself yesterday and titled my last post day 5 (which has now been fixed). Maybe it was a combination of wishful thinking and being half asleep, but today is definitely day 5!
We cracked open a new vial of Puregon today. Each vial has enough units for 4 days. Iāve been given enough for 12 days worth of stims so fingers crossed I donāt need to go and collect some more later on.
Todayās Injection site was back below the belly button and I did notice that area is probably the more painful of all the options to inject so will be trying a new plan of attack to go on the outer areas of my tummy.
Last night I felt pretty good and it made me a bit worried. I was concerned the meds werenāt working anymore, but maybe my body is getting used to them? Fingers crossed they do still work. Iād hate to find out I had ovulated before egg collection and the meds were all wasted! I donāt go back in to the clinic for monitoring until Thursday which seems like a really long time to leave me injecting without checking my follies. Maybe Iām just being impatient!
Time to be real here: anyone who thinks that IVF is the easy option is sorely mistaken. Itās not just the money, or the meds, or the needles, or the time you invest. Itās the psychological impact. Daily I find myself flipping between being positive and telling myself it will work, to trying to keep realistic that my chances are only slightly more than a natural conception. I desperately want this to work, but I have to keep my hopes in check with the fact that there is a 60% chance it wonāt. Add to that the self guilt and worry of administering meds wrong and looking for even the slightest side effects to make sure the meds are working and itās no wonder it can be so taxing on a person's relationships during the cycle.