#itsmore

So the other night there was one of those huge wolf spiders on my curtains just as I was going to bed and I started freaking out but luckily dad was awake and he managed to get it for me. Then the night after that there was ANOTHER one which came from nowhere and ran across the floor near my feet and under my desk and it made me really panicky, and I thought I knw where it was and that I'd be able to trap it and take it outside, but then it wasn't there when I went to drop the bowl over it and now I know ther's just a huge leggy spider somehwere under my desk hiding somewhere ann dIm getting so freaked out about it. Like, I'm not putting my feet under the desk anymore. I have to clean out under there becaus eI'm moving out next week but I'm terrified an dI don't knwo how I'm gonna do it. I don;t think my parents fully understand that these spiders actually make me panic - they dont just scare me slightly like spiders used to when I was a kid, they really set off my anxiety and I've not been able to relax properly in my room or sleep properly the last couple days becasu eI know its in here an dugh its just frekaing me out and nope