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For this task, you’ll be creating a mix for your character that will give them more depth and help everyone get to know them better. The mix template and all other information can be found below.
a current favorite song
a song that would play in the movie trailer of your life
a song with a story behind it
a song you’d make out to
a song that reminds you of your favorite season
a song from a favorite band/artist
a song that cheers you up
a song that reminds you of home
a song that makes you think about the future
a song you prefer to listen at night
a song you play when you’re sad
a song with lyrics you’d like to tattoo on yourself
a song you know all the lyrics to
your favorite cover of a song
a song that describes your default mood
You can make the playlist on Spotify, link each song to a youtube video or tumblr link, or just list the song titles — whichever method you prefer! Playlists don’t need graphics, though they’re always nice for aesthetic purposes.
While all tasks are optional, we highly encourage everyone to take this opportunity to flesh out your character and get creative! We do weekly tasks, posted every Monday. We prefer that current members post tasks within the week that they are posted, but feel free to do any tasks that are available to you! New members are always welcome to do any tasks that have already been posted. Once you have completed the task, tag your post under: #IthacaTask
a current favorite song // eyes wide open by gotye
a song that would play in the movie trailer of your life // where’s my love by syml
a song with a story behind it // think of me by vérité
a song you’d make out to // good good by tanerélle
a song that reminds you of your favorite season // dark doo wop by ms mr
a song from a favorite band/artist // somethingfartoogoodtofeel by the japanese house
a song that cheers you up // midnight sky by miley cyrus
a song that reminds you of home // young by the paper kites
a song that makes you think about the future // icarus by white hinterland
a song you prefer to listen at night // so sad so sexy by lykke li
a song you play when you’re sad // malibu nights by lany
a song with lyrics you’d like to tattoo on yourself // godless by banks
a song you know all the lyrics to // hazel chandeliers by rum.gold
your favorite cover of a song // godspeed by james blake
a song that describes your default mood // love and war by fleurie
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there are too many letters to sort through. there were weeks where luciana wrote a letter a day in order to cope with the mistake she made. there are two birthday cards with letters written on the inside for the first two years of her daughter’s life. she has kept every letter she’s ever written stored away in a baby box that goes untouched beneath her bed. the letters were all safely tucked into an envelope with the intention of mailing them off one day for her daughter to eventually read, but she never worked up the courage. since moving to ithaca, she’s added some to the collection. beneath the cut are three letters.
LETTER NUMBER ONE / FIRST BIRTHDAY / ONE YEAR AGO
Happy First Birthday, Piper. I know that I’m not there to celebrate it with you, but I’m sure that it’s going to be amazing because you have the best father in the entire world. I don’t know if you ask for me yet or if you’ve gotten used to him being the only parent around, but I haven’t stopped thinking about you. I bet you’re close to walking already if you haven’t already started. Just do us both a favor and take it easy on your dad, okay? I’m sure he’s trying his hardest to be there for you. There’s only so much I can fit on this card, but I want you to know that I love you. I have always loved you and I will continue to love you.
LETTER NUMBER TWO / WHY? / TWO YEARS AGO
Dear Piper, I’m sorry. I know that you’re too young to understand what’s happening right now, but I’m sure you’ll have questions when you’re older and I want to be able to answer them so your dad doesn’t have to. For starters, none of this was your fault. It wasn’t his fault either, so please don’t put the blame on him when things get hard. Blame me. Always blame me. I made the decision to leave and I need you to know that it wasn’t because of you. I don’t know if you will even want to hear why, but here it is. Growing up, I didn’t have a good mother. She ended up leaving me with my father and I never knew what happened to her. I was angry and maybe I still am, but how can I be when I did the same thing to you? My father was everything to me growing up and I know that yours will be too. He’s a good man and I’m lucky to have known him. I guess that when I think about it, I wanted you to have a happy life and I just couldn’t picture myself in it. I ruined a lot of things in my life, but I couldn’t risk ruining you. I knew that if I left, your dad would be there and he would give you the best life possible and I know that he will and that he already is. When you’re older, if you decide that you want to know me, I won’t deny you of that. I’m sure there will be times when I want to come running back to you, but I promise that I won’t do that if I’m not ready because I can’t leave you twice. I wouldn’t be able to. But if you decide that you hate me and want nothing to do with me, then I’ll understand that too. Whatever you decide, I know that I will support you and that your dad will too. On the topic of your father, please take it easy on him. I know it’s going to be a difficult road for the both of you, but I know that he’s always going to be there for you, so let him be. If he’s overprotective, it’s because he doesn’t want anything bad to ever happen to you. So, when you’re old enough and he gives you a curfew, try not to argue it, okay? And when it comes to dating, try not to drive him insane. I’m sure between the two of us, you’ve got chaos in your veins. Piper, you are going to be an amazing person and I’m sorry that I won’t be around to see that, but I can promise you that I will always be thinking about you and that I will always love you with my entire heart. You are forever my daughter and I might not be deserve being called your mother, but it makes me proud to know that you are out there somewhere in the world being as perfect as you are. I love you big, Piper.
LETTER THREE / SEE YOU AGAIN / ONE WEEK AGO
I can’t believe I’m writing again. I have an entire box full of letters addressed to you that I’ve never sent. One day, I want to give them all to you and if you want to read them, you can. If you want to burn them all, you can do that too. I know that you’re still young, but I’ve already missed so much. Your crawling, your first steps, your first words... I’ll never get those back and I’m sorry. Just as I thought though, your dad has taken amazing care of you and he’s as protective as I thought he’d be. He cares about you so much and he’s done everything possible to keep you happy and healthy. Two years is a long time, but I promise that I’m not going to miss another moment of your life, Piper. I’m here and I should have been here the entire time and I know that now. I’m not my mother and I am so sorry that I walked away and left you. Even if I’m here now, you deserve to be angry with me for what I did to you and your dad. It wasn’t fair, but I’m not going anywhere now. He showed me a picture of you and you’ve changed so much. You have his smile and it makes me wonder how much you’re like him too. I can’t wait until the moment that I can see you again. I don’t care how long it takes or what I have to do, I’m going to be here. You will never have to know another moment where your mother isn’t around. I love you big, Piper.
I just got off the phone with you today, but I didn’t say everything that I wanted to say. As soon as I tried to make the words my tongue turned to ash and my hearted wanted to stop so I couldn’t do it— sometimes words can’t be made out loud, confessions have to be written down and kept secret. We’ve never had a secret between us, I’ve never been scared to tell you anything before.
Yesterday I saw the picture of you and dad again, the one on my mantle. I think you were my age in it and you look just like me. I don’t think I’ve ever seen two people look happier, or more in love. There are days where I’m terrified of becoming just like you: not that I think that you’re unhappy, or that there is no love in your life, but that I know that I don’t have the same strength that you do. History has a way of repeating itself, I think you said so yourself once, that we are mirrors of one another— the best parts of both you and dad. I’m scared of so many things, sometimes I don’t know how to even face the day with how heavy it feels around me. I’m terrified for loving someone in the same way you did, of carrying it with me, of never being able to love anyone else again. I’m terrified of being alone, even though there is so much love around me I can’t help but feel that it won’t amount to enough.
How can you love someone for so long, and not be with them? I already feel as though what love I have from others is divided: I want a selfish adoration, to be an entire world instead of a star in a universe. I’m scared of disappointing you, of you thinking that I’m silly, that I ask for too much. I’m scared of everything, I’m lonely, and I miss you.
