My ToM Thoughts (after watching the live stream)
So I’m supposed to write a review for my darling @mythosethan but tbh idek what to say. I’m just an emotion with legs right now. I feel like I could break down sobbing at any moment. It was just..so much. Those beautiful, talented, incredible beans take my breath away. I have never come across more authentic, passionate humans. I have no doubt that they’re exhausted, but that they just don’t care because their hearts are full. And their bodies may be tired, but their souls are being energized.
They.love.what.they.do.
I think it’s so great that even though they’ve already done the show a handful of times, they still react genuinely to different parts, still break character, still giggle. I mean, I just couldn’t stop smiling! I felt so proud, and so in love. I look up to them and respect them so much. I feel so damn blessed. *wipes tear*
All in all it was fantastic, I loved every second, and I will cherish the experience forever. And it’s all because of Ethan, if it wasn’t for them I wouldn’t have been able to participate. Bless this amazing community, I love you Beasts <3
Aight, it’s about to get a tad personal:
I believe that the universe brought RandL into my life exactly when I needed them. At a time when I’m really starting to work hard on embracing what makes me..me. Accepting what makes me different...and mythical. :) Somehow, RandL make me feel like it’s ok to be myself. To be weird and unique.
As many of you probably already know, I am bisexual. And that’s something I’ve only recently come to terms with. I’ve only been “out” for a couple years. And it still kinda feels strange to refer to myself as bisexual. I’ll be 23 on Feb 7th, and I was 20 when I really figured it out. I don’t think I’ll ever know why it took so long for me to realize, but I think it had to do with not wanting to be more of a “freak” than I already thought I was. I hated myself for a long time, and I went through a very dark patch. Now, I’m finally seeing the light. But that’s not to say that I dont’ have cloudy days, of course I do, anxiety and depression don’t just go away. But I’m more aware of my mental health than ever before. And RandL, and y’all, this community, is most definitely aiding in my healing. Anyway, accepting this part of myself has been lifechanging, and RandL make me feel loved and supported through the process (which of course is ongoing). And I really do want to meet them someday, to say thank you. For inspiring me, and for helping me see the beauty in being different. I am short (4ft10), I am nerdy, I am spiritual, I love God (my definition of Him that is), I am on the Autism spectrum, I love storytelling in all forms, I am quirky, I love dressing both masculine and feminine, I am Bisexual. And that’s just the tip of the iceberg! I am a one of a kind Mythical Beast, a freakin Unicorn. And I love myself more and more each day.
