This day 6 years ago we were going out on a date. I had just come off the bus and you weren't standing there like you always were waiting with a big smile. I waited there thinking you were running late, I waited half a hour you weren't answering your phone or your house phone, I just laughed it off thinking you were playing your music to loud again...........oh how I wish it was just that. I should have known something was wrong weeks leading up to this day you kept apologising for the littlest things and every minute you kept telling me you loved me I thought you were just being cheesy. I headed towards your house a smile on my face thinking of our date and how you were finally going to be staying at my house for my birthday I was so excited. Your dad had just pulled up as I got to your gate he left his case behind for a meeting and he had come back we chatted for a bit I could hear your music and laughed he opened the door for me and we both laughed about it I called for you no answer oh how I wish you answered I kepted calling for you till I got to your door, I just remembered me screaming none stop tears running down my face I don't remember your father running up the stairs the police or the ambulance medics I just remember seeing you and screaming for you to wake up. I should have seen the signs I wasn't paying attention but you were doing so well the therapy and you hadn't harmed yourself in months, I keep blaming myself maybe if I had talked more or had been a better girlfriend anything just to have you back in my arms.

I would do anything to have you back in my arms M anything.

I Miss you and Love you so much M.