#6years

cousin Rin didn't want to leave and had to be carried out

Why does leaving you feel like something ended before it was meant to? I met you six years ago and somehow, no matter how many times we fell apart, my heart never really left. Why is it always you? When no one’s around, it’s you. When everyone’s around, it’s still you I search for. You make me feel like home one day, like I belong somewhere, and the next day it’s “who are you, who am I?” And now I don’t even know when I’ll see you again — or if I ever will — or if we’ll even talk like we used to. That’s the part that hurts the most. I pretend I’m fine because friendship is the only piece of you I’m allowed to keep. I know I hurt you, I know maybe I broke something too deep to fix, but why won’t you just tell me how much it hurt so we can start over? Don’t turn cold. Don’t walk away like it was nothing. I love you too much to say it out loud because I’m scared I’ll lose even what little is left. And seeing you with her felt like I disappeared. Am I really that replaceable? I try to let go, I try to understand, but some stubborn part of me will always love you. I just wish it didn’t end so soon. I just wish it wasn’t you.

6 Years (2015) ★★★★★★☆☆☆☆

Anniversary!

I'll tell you how much I grew.

Don't tell me, or it won't come true.

Long live jah forever