there’s something so deeply heartbreaking and utterly fascinating at the idea that shane just doesn’t understand how much ilya is obsessed with him during their hookup era
like for him he’s thinking “this is my normal casual hook up buddy/rival we don’t kiss we suck each other off and fuck nasty in hotel rooms. yes i smile giddily when i text him to the point where my best friend notices and enjoy when he teases me and fall to my knees when he asks. this is normal Casual Hookup Behaviour. i am doing this by the rules.”
meanwhile ilya is in the absolute trenches. fucking his way across the continent. grinding on his female best friend. doing body shots off of women in clubs. anything to forget the prettiest freckles he’s ever seen in his life that he’s been smitten with since he was 17. he wants and craves this stupid boring canadian who can’t even SEE how much ilya desperately wants him
