#irrirated

I can't help it. Sometimes I get just so irritated that I throw all caution to the wind and REALLY let people know how i'm feeling. Oops.

The background to this statement is as follows:

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So, I work hard. Not for attention or praise, not for perks or anything. I work hard because its the right thing to do. Some other people that I work with though, don't have the same philosophy. My problem is that when someone else isn't doing what they should be and is randomly wandering around like they belong in a hot dog suit handing out fliers, I step in and take on everything they were supposed to be doing, or at least trying to. This can get stressful when I get left alone by myself working 4 stations by myself, trying to make all of the guests happy, and trying to maintain my sanity. Last night was one of these nights, and the night that I really lost it.

My boss is great. He's nice and fun and really understanding and goes out of his way for everyone. And yesterday, I was a really big jerk to him :\ I was irritated because I felt like I was doing and always do all of this work and no one cares about it, but the people who constantly do nothing get praise when they move a box from one side of the room to the other. I actually almost quit last night, but I'm glad I didn't.

I have a great job, and I like it. I don't want a different one. I might complain about it constantly, but at the end of the day I can just say that tomorrow is a new day, and i'll be excited to go back and do it all over again. I'm always going to have to deal with irritating people, who come to work to socialize and don't care about anyone else. I'm just going to have to learn how to deal with it and come to grips with the fact that I know I'm doing my best, and thats all that matters. I don't need notice or acknowledgement, I don't need perks for doing the right thing. I guess sometimes it would be nice to be told i'm doing a great job, but I don't want it to be just because I look irritated or like I'm having a shitty day. I want it to be because someone genuinely cares that I'm doing my best and that I'm making a difference. Oh well, I dont even really know what I'm saying anymore.

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