#ireallylikehim

He was seen in school on Wednesday and we managed to find out that he is back. It’s more complicated than that but he’s back and I've seen him and talked to him.

Yesterday (Wednesday), I saw him a couple of times but we didn't talk or anything. BUT in the morning I had an exam so I was sitting doing some last minute revising with some friends and WHO DO I SEE walking through the door? Oh, yes! Bare in mind none of us have seen or spoken to him for about 3 months; none of us knew (we still don’t) why he hadn't been in school. This motherfucker sees us and does a thumbs up! WTF?! It was so funny. Also, yesterdays exam was for his subject. Now, did he do that on purpose, or was it a coincidence or something else? I don't know and I probably never will.

Today, I was doing laps with a friend at lunch on the floor where his classroom is. We walked past him about every 5 minutes but he didn't see us because he was busy, but one time when we were going past he came out of his room and saw us but didn't say “hi” or smile or anything and I was like “fucking hell, okay then”. I didn't say that but ya know. After lunch I had to study for an exam that I have tomorrow so I sat in the study place in his department, I usually choose to sit there to study, even when he was away. He actually spoke to me. he kept on walking past and he came over to talk to me a couple of times. It wasn't anything too interesting but it was amazing and meant a lot to me. We joked a bit and he wished me good luck for my exam tomorrow.

I am so happy that he’s finally back but I wont see him much because I’ve technically left school. I will still be in a few days in the next couple of weeks and I need to get my leavers form signed but I don't have long. I'm hoping that he will come to see the school show so I might get to see him there. I’ll need to remember to ask him about that. 

Hi, I’m new here and might delete this blog really soon but I need some advice or just someone to “listen”.

I don't know how long this message is going to be so bare with me?

Ok so, I have sort of already left school. I had my last day today because my year are going to the theme park tomorrow as a celebration. 

Anyway, I have a major crush on one of my teachers BUT I haven’t seen him in a few months. I don't know why but he’s been away since the start of February and none of the other teachers have said anything. There are plenty rumours going around but obviously nobody knows the actual answer for his absence. If you would like me to develop this (I won’t go into every detail) please let me know; I might write about it anyway. 

No one had been told when he would be returning but a few of my friends have heard in some recent weeks that he will be back next Monday as it is the start of exam leave, therefore all senior pupils will be gone. I will be in most of that week to study for my exams but I don't know what to do if I see him, I really want to see him and talk but I'm socially awkward and I don't want to somehow put him into a difficult position. There is a study area in his department that I sometimes go to because it is mostly quieter than other designated study places in my school. I was planning on spending most of my time there but I don't want to look like I'm stalking him or that I'm looking for answers because I really like him, and respect him and his privacy. 

If anyone reads this and wants to help it would be greatly appreciated. I can write more for some further information so let me know what you think.