#intimidatethevoid

It’s more of divine evolution.

It depends on where you live and how old you are. But when I say they believe in evolution it’s more of an exaggeration. The Catholic Church isn’t against evolution but they’re not actively endorsing it.

While I was in school we didn’t talk about evolution but we were never taught dinosaurs and such didn’t exist. And I had a vegan creationist teacher teaching us evolution while I was in public school.

NECK KISS (ava du mortain x nora bishop)

Nora hums quietly as she stretches in front of the mirror, relishing the ache in her muscles as she admires Ava's handiwork from last night. takes in the light bruising over her hips, the hickeys and bite marks lining her clavicle and her throat. Her hand travels down her breastbone, cocking her head to the side in admiration. 

AAAA I'M SO ENVIOUS WTF

I KNOW!!

slightwind replied to your post “I found out the other day that my grey hairs are part of like a grey...”

grey streak! grey streak!

Stuff I love about the dumb vampire game!

Dumb vampires

Lettow Kaminsky is a hottie (Elisa ghostwrote this)

I have never made this many OCs for a franchise in my LIFE

Canon is fucked between games. This is usually a problem for a story, except that VTM writers actively encourage people to take what they like and toss out what they don’t, so while they do oversee some amount of continuity, it’s mostly that writers of the various games are actively encouraged to do this for the sense of fun.

oh no there's a really calm NPC that serves as a mentor figure with dubious morals OH NO

different types of vampires!

so many asshole characters! people just trying to get by! the never-ending struggle to survive a world that hates you! My aspec neurodivergent heart LOVES it!

so much potential for enemies to lovers. SO MUCH

no day walking vampire bullshit. Vampires are actually VAMPIRES.

so many vampires not trying to be anything but what they are! Again, my neurodivergent ass is ALL OVER THAT. stop trying to make me normal damn it. stop trying to make my babies normal. let! me! be! weird! let my babies be weird!!! people think I'm being a dick just by being aspec and neurodivergent so I relate to actual dicks more than heroic characters! LET THEM BE DICKS! because I feel like a dick just by not being anything other than what I am! let me have nice things damn it!

my friend once told me "growing up my abusive parents always treated me like a monster. that's why I relate to evil characters and monsters so much" and I've never forgotten that.

I want to know that someone I love is enough of a dick that they'll still protect and defend me when people think I'M a dick just by existing, instead of putting their own reputation as a nice person first and letting the wolves take me when I did nothing wrong

and VTM has so many people who are absolute penises in it and I love it

I just relate to this shitty world so much. I have had people slam and abuse me for not dating or falling in love, acting like I'm a spiteful piece of shit for being aspec. for not paying attention. and vtm has so many actual spiteful pieces of shit and they keep doing their thing anyway. if they have the courage to be actual pieces of shit, I have the courage to not date and use someone just to project the image I'm anything other than what I am, I have the courage to keep working with my ADHD instead of pretending it doesn't exist and hating myself when it doesn't go away.

Above: the reason why I get personally offended by people trying to make VTM something it's not, why I get upset when people sneer at Grimdark. Yep, it's unironically me and not you. I feel personally threatened and feel like something I relate to is trying to be taken away from me, when I have so little to begin with as a freak and outcast. stories lied to me as I grew up and told me things would get better, that someone would save me before it was too late, that the thing I was most afraid of would never happen, that I'd get a happy ending. let me have this. let me have it. let me find strength in the grimdarkness, and in the characters who keep on surviving despite it. let me be given the courage to survive as myself because of spite when there's nothing else to keep me going. let me be the asshole I have to be to get people off my back when being nice to them doesn't work. stop trying to take it away. I won't let you.

stories told me people would listen if I just explained myself, but no matter how much I explain the above, they never listen. they never care it's what I need. I can go fuck myself. Grimdark is bad, asshole characters are bad, and fuck me.

I keep on screaming anyway, because I refuse to go quietly. this matters to me.