These past couple of months I have been experimenting with different pronouns and different gender identities. Every since I was little I never felt outwardly feminine and always dabbled in a sort of in between. My strength has always been in androgyny and I am okay with that. As far as gender identity, I don’t really know and I’ve come to the conclusion that that is okay. I feel no real pressure to put a label on anything and I have decided not to stress about it anymore. After months of being wrapped up in identity politics I didn’t come away with any answers and at times felt even more alienated than I already feel. I don’t feel like a man but I don’t exactly feel like a woman. I kinda just feel like a hybrid lol and as far as I know there’s no real name for that. To say I’m nonbinary doesn’t exactly feel right even thought I identify with the experience. But aside from all that I just want peace. To live in my identity and not worry about pronouns, although I have no problem with you calling me “they” ;) and would kinda prefer it but it’s not a big deal. Anyway, I look forward to growing and understanding all parts of my queerness but we can only take things one step at a time and right now I am comfortable with where I am. 

10/27/22 7:48pm