This is embarrassing. Canāt even remember how long itās been since I last updated a fic, probably almost a year. I admit Iāve been lazy and unproductive and kind of focused on other things, but, as usual, Iām not dead. I guess Iām a zombie?
So, hereās a double update. Iāve re-written the first chapter of Fondness; the plan was to just adapt it to make it less sucky, but it turned out something completely different. Hopefully itās better.
And Iāve also updated Dragons. Not sure thereās anything in particular to say about that, except some necessaryĀ āplothole-ishā parts are now out of the way, so anything after this will be mostly character interactions and pregnancy stuff and fluff/drama/etc.Ā
Enjoy, feel free to comment/criticize/what have you, and, as always, thank you very much for the attention and for your time! Itās late and Iām tired, so Iāll probably fix potential mess-ups sometime later; I apologize for those in advance.Ā
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Hello, hello, everyone! Itās been a while! I apologize for my absence, but lots of stuff happened and I got lazy!
Anyway, hereās what I promised last time we met: the first chapter of a new Alutegra fic,Ā āDragonsā:Ā https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13032986/1/Dragons
Itās kind of a weird chapter, but thatās because I was at a loss on how to introduce this new story... So I took a bunch of unfinished, independent texts and tied them together with a singular motif. As you read through, youāll probably figure out what the storyās about, but if you donāt, well, youāre going to have to wait for chapter 2, hehe.
I remember saying in my last post that it wouldnāt take me too long to post this chapter, but... I kinda got addicted to Yo-Kai Watch (Fleshy Souls for Kyubi power), and ended up postponing both the writting and release of Dubious.
Regardless, there you go! Itās not the most creative; I suppose I lost theĀ āweirdnessā I wanted to develop with The Nest (chapter 2), but, still, itās Alutegra and a little awkward, so thereās that.
Like I said in the authorās notes, Dubious will be the last chapter Iāll upload to Fondness for a while. Not only because I want to focus on a more proper Alutegra story, but because I also want to engage on another creative endeavor (which I hope will benefit my love for the couple).Ā
Iām thinking about eventually releasing the real bad and unfinished stuff I wrote, but I keep changing my mind because I get embarrassed by all the terribleness. If these scraps do get some sort of polishing, though, theyāll be posted, rest assured.
Anyway, stay safe, enjoy this little thing, and Iāll see you (hopefully) soon with something different!
Itās right here:Ā https://www.fanfiction.net/s/11066640/6/Fondness
I wasnāt very creative with this chapter, Iāll admit. I just wanted a way to turn headcanons into somethingĀ ānarrative-yā.Ā
Apologies for making Alucard wimpy. Itās just an idea I had for his reaction concerning the things he cares about. Or rather, the prospect of losing them. You know when Windows pops up that FATAL ERROR blue screen? Thatās how I see it.
Yeah, itās pretty fucking weak, but there you go. Also, I donāt think Iāll take too long (not my usual interval, at least) to post the next chapter.
No, seriously, it does, of no oneās fault but mine.
Itās always the same, really. I go AWOL for God knows how long, spend the entire time involved in other stuff BESIDES writing, and then I suddenly realize I havenāt updated in a long while, and I panic. So, of course, I scramble around and pretty much force myself to sit down and actually write something (because thereās no other way Iāll ever produce anything), so I feel less shitty about being online-useless.
And it hardly ever comes out the way I originally planned.Ā
(Warning: I ramble a lot beyond this point).
I donāt really understand what happens. I have all these chapters somewhat summarized in poor bullet points. Or, at least, I have a vague idea of how the story will go. And then, when I sit down to write it, it just... doesnāt come out that way. Either I drag one particular scene for too long and it becomes the whole chapter, or I suddenly decide to combine two different ideas into one.
Which is what happened withĀ āThe Phone Callā.
My original idea for this chapter was having Alucard call Integra in different, yet always inapropriate situations, to talk about whatever dumb shit he was up to, resulting in her either being embarrassingly entertained/aroused, or facepalmilly annoyed at his intrusions. The chapter was originally divided into four different scenes and would end with a bittersweet conversation, but, as you might have read, only one part survived and became the whole thing.
It also swallowed another idea I had for another chapter, which was to display Integraās more sadistic/thrill-seeker side (which the vampire likes to probe to embarrass her; itās canon, anyway).Ā
I guess the chapter didnāt come out TOO bad, but it wasnāt at all what I envisioned. Again. It happened before, and it will probably keep happening. I am not satisfied with the way I write either, so that needs to be fixed.
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I think I know what I have to do. I need to read more. I need to exercise more, and, perhaps, take some... lessons, whateverās available on the Internet. Tutorials? Advice? My writing, at least to me, feels very stiffled and unnatural, lacking onĀ ālifeā, so to speak. I canāt explain it, but I donāt like it. I feel like a noob.
I guess Iām just not as enthusiastic about this as I used to be when I wrote all the unpolished drafts and scripts. Rather, itās thinking about putting in effort to produce something decent that conjures my lazyness and the result is... well, all of this.Ā
ANYWAY, like always, Iāll try to do better next time! Thereās still a couple of Alutegra fics I want to see come to life, and thereās a bunch of unfinished crap laying around that could probably use some refinement, so thereās that to look forward to. I canāt, however, focus on one thing at a time, and I actually want more and more to get original things out there, so expect different things in the future.
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A new chapter for Fondness was uploaded. Link is right here. [Click]
Also, this will be my last update in a couple (or so) of months. Itās probably not very different from the usual time I take to upload (ouch), but this is kind of an actual, official hiatus. Something came up IRL (nothing serious, really) that demands my full attention, so I wonāt be able to write anything until I sort it out.
Hopefully, it will be resolved in two months or so. When I get back, Iāll most likely work on a new chapter for Fondness, rather than of any other sort of creative work.
As far as this new chapter is concerned, itās my first time writing something like that and it felt kind of weird, Iāll admit. The Alutegra moments werenāt as prominent, but I guess Iām reasonably satisfied with how it came out. Itās really frustrating that I have not been able to come up with quirky behavior for Alucard (or Integra) like I did in the second chapter (The Nest), so I want to work on that. :/
Anyway, I got nothing else to say, so... Iāll see you all (whoever you might be) in a couple of months, hopefully! :D