#insecurethoughts

I don't have to suffer alone anymore. I can be open and expect love back. When I feel lonely I will turn to her. I own up 100% to the pain I gave her.

I really want to do something special, but the most special and loving thing to do is to be With her with all my insecurities, worries and broken parts of me.

I want Achsah to know I LOVE HER alot!

New job - building strong foundation for a family home with her. A place of love and kindness.

New car - protect her, be her man and also look after our kids and parents.

Losing weight - Feeling good will boost me and I would feel less insecure and stop hating myself.

My whole Heart is for her. Achsah!

Be my Girlfriend, be my best friend, be My Great wife!

You are Number 1 in my life and I ask God to protect us and show me how to do things properly.

Because its my first time being with someone I feel could lead to Marriage, kids and a Happy home life.

My father wasn't there for me or my mum.

I WON'T MAKE the same Mistake!

Be MY WIFE!!!

You are 1st, I defend you and I am sooo PROUD of YOU!

Let me protect you.

I am thank you for Correcting me. Guiding me and making me realise you do Actually LOVE me alot!

Sorry I get insecure. I want a fresh start with you alone and want This to be my final ever relationship and Wife to be.

You are My Perfect choice and You werr chosen for me.

Sorry I let God down by hurting such a beautiful daughter that he sent ny way to care for.

You make me want to study again and i feel very enthusiastic about learning again.

I AM PROUD of YOU and do not have hate for you ok.

I do have hate for myself though. I wish I met you before.

YOU ARE MY FIRST!

You definitely are my last.

Thank for being sooo Amazing and truly wonderful.

I am not used to this Love or how to handle it.

You ever just feel inadequate. Like you’re unqualified to live the life you’ve been given or even sometimes overqualified to deal with the bullshit life gives you. There is no question that I’m the baddest bitch that has walked these streets but sometimes I wonder is that enough. Is having confidence and knowing your self value enough? Everyone says just hold your head up, ignore the haters, believe in yourself and everything will be alright. I’ve been ignoring haters since 5 grade but it hasn’t done me any good. I doesn’t take away much negativity from my life. Every time I look in the mirror I find myself trying to be proud of what I’m looking at but I end up looking for flaws and faults. Whats the point of keeping your head up if all you see in your path is inadequacy and disappoint. Guess I’m in my bag tonight. Time to eat a honeybun and listen to Insecure by Jazmine Sullivan x Bryson Tiller. Them niggas should really sponsor me as much as I advertise that fucking track. It is the best song of 2017 though. I can’t even lie. Anyway.....Gn Y’all