The games of the mind. A mere illusion.
Do you know what’s terrifying? 11 pm you get home in your own apartment and as you head towards your room you turn for a split second towards the kitchen, noticing someone there, you turn your head towards your room again as your mind processes what you’ve seen with your eyes. You turn towards the kitchen again to see yourself stand in the middle of it. As curious as it is, you see the image of yoursefld standing there, eating from a bowl, meat dripping blood down into the bowl. And in your mind... Your thoughts just disappear, you freeze and start to shake as you see yourself. This image of yourself turns it’s gaze from the bowl up to you, staring with a cold piercing sensation that structs you, your chest starting to get heavier and heavier and your heart bumping as if it would rip out of your rib cage. But all this happens for a few seconds, though in your mind it seemed like whole eternity. You just standing there infront of your room looking towards the kitchen. Chest pounding, body shivering and the sudden overflow of thoughts inside your head. “Am I seeing this? Is this me? What am I doing? Why am I shaking? Why is this so terrifying? Why am I scared of myself? Am I going nuts?” And then you simply blink and it’s gone. Leaving you with nothing but unaswered questions. I don’t know how most would feel. I don’t know what is a proper responce to that. But for me? It felt like I wanted to die so badly at that moment. For one who’ve suffered a few incidents where my life was at cost. Not to treble. But this? This certainly have scarred me. And I come to the realisation. The one thing I fear the most is myself.
