#insanityworkout

Because i love it!!!

Today was a difficult day in this new journey but I am glad that I managed to complete my workout.Phew.  In terms of diet, today was not good. But I am gonna plan out what I will be eating from monday to friday, as today is Sunday.

I was feeling sad and let down because I didn't work out or eat good the last two days and this whole weekend I felt a genuine sadness and my anxiety has made me feel like shit... like i have no one...anyway..... today I told myself that I will not let myself go deeper into this hole of depression, i am desperate for happiness, for confidence, to feel good about myself... I really dragged myself out of my bed and worked out today... even though my diet today was shit I still worked out at that.. is an achievement for me. For some damn reason whenever I had a day that i didn’t eat healthy, I ended up not working out either on that day because for some reason i felt that day had already gone to shit so there’s no point in trying.. which would then lead me to quitting the whole weight loss thing all together. This scenario has happened so many times this past year, which I is why I haven’t been consistent and haven't lost any weight, instead have gained weight this year. But today was a good day because I in a mini way, broke this cycle. My one week of insanity is over. I will try my best to make WEEK 2 more better.

I WANT  CHANGE.

I DO NOT WANT TO REPEAT THESE BAD HABITS.

Yours truly~