#innerstar

My birthday is on Monday so I took myself to Manitou Springs last weekend to celebrate. The town has a really chill vibe with a lot of eclectic shops I really enjoy. Divulging in some materialism, I got myself some gifts! My most meaningful one would be the piece of stone, the same kind and from where the original stones at Stonehenge were from. I celebrate the solstices so it holds special meaning for me, especially as I hope my son will continue to celebrate them after I am gone.

I also received my innerstar accessory from Spain last week! Although all of my jewelry helps me feel empowered, I do feel a special connection to this piece.

Plants are a big source of enjoyment for me. I have a large collection and am happy to have added this boobie cactus to the bunch! It has been on my wishlist for some time but as is the same with my past wishlist plants, I've waited now for good reason. She is in fantastic shape, a perfect maturity for my liking, already potted in an appropriate media...and I was able to support a local shop instead of a big box store/wholesale nursery.

Lastly I wanted to share the book I got. After I finish a book that requires a lot of focus (I finished Neogensis: Dawn of the New Mind by Morgue a few weeks ago), I like to read a palette cleanser. This book on Altered States has been the perfect one, especially with how often they have been mentioned lately in the Nexus Academy and Oculus Livestreams. This book, short but detailed, has sparked my curiosity in relation to my own neurological functioning. I have bipolar depression and post partum ADHD, both of which I take medication for. It hasn't occured to me until I read this that although they are psychiatric medications prescribed by a doctor, they are still substances that alter my state of mind or consciousness. I plan on looking into more detail about how the substances I consume (meds, herbs, even chocolate) alter my state of consciousness. What is the chemistry of it? What is my brain lacking that these substances seem to provide that help me genuinely function better? What other physical effects do they have and are they possibly harmful? This is what I am currently researching before I move onto reading Cosmogenesis: The Awakening Universe, Morgue's third book in their series.

And of course I'll share those findings at some point. It will also include my past history with addiction, and probably how trauma can change the brain.

Does anyone have any preference as to how I share this? Is it easier to listen to audio, watch a video, read?

A review of my background with belief systems: as a child I was raised Christian, although my family stopped going to church when I was about ten. I still attended with extended family for holidays but not other than that. I never found Christianity to be the answer for me even back then. My thoughts were that "God" was actually "Source". This belief was encouraged when I was in science class and learned the law of conservation of energy, which states: energy cannot be created or destroyed. I wasn't saying there were not some good lessons that *could* come from Christianity, but I felt a much stronger pull to science. Although I was a smart kid, I didn't follow that pull. I didn't think I would be smart enough to understand it when it really got down to it. I got the Big Bang, but I couldn't understand how something came from nothing, nor what was smaller than an atom, and then smaller than that, and then smaller than that.... I just figured science would have the answers. I turned my focus away from the science of life and more towards how to live it peacefully. I studied Buddhism, Paganism, Wicca, Hinduism, and new age. There were things I liked from all of it but I didn't feel like I could subscribe to just one. Instead, I pulled concepts from each that were similar and/or resonated with me for my greater good. Surely I will post what some of those philosophies were later as I still carry them with me today.

It wasn't until several months ago that I found the Neogenian community through Morgue's YouTube channel. Their book Neogenesis: Dawn of the New Mind was really what I have had in my head in a vague fog. As I read it I felt like someone finally was putting into words what I have always felt inside. Since joining the Neogenian community I have been able to learn so much as well as having my own flame of curiosity reignited. These thoughts are ones I have always kept to myself as I did not have anyone to share them with. I thought I was weird for thinking about these kinds of things. Turns out I'm not weird at all, nor am I alone in the journey towards hyperawareness. I am so thankful to have found the community and to be able to share my path, information, and perspectives with you all 🖤🤍

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How to American Girl Campus

Here's a quirk start guide to enjoying Innerstar University, the American Girl Campus! New My American Girl Dolls come with a code that will allow you and your daughter to create an online profile for her doll and enroll the doll at school and explore the campus. 

While I know you daughter is raring to register, first make certain that you have the minimum system requirements to enjoy the online environment. You will need:

Basic System Requirements: Windows: Internet Explorer 6, 7, or 8; Firefox 2.0+; Google Chrome Mac: Safari 4.0+; Firefox 2.0+; Google Chrome  Monitor Resolution: Optimized for 1024  x 768 or larger Flash version 10 and high-speed Internet required

Once you've verified system requirements, go to americangirl.com/innerstaru to create a profile for your daughter's doll. You will select a name and register the doll for the university. Once registered the doll will receive a "student id". (Please remember to note your registration credentials so that your daughter can visit the site again and again.)

Innerstar University is a virtual campus filled with fun and games for your daughter to enjoy with her doll. The environment is safe for children as no personal information is requested. (If you have concerns as a parent you can check out the service by going to americangirl.com/innerstaru/parents.php and clicking the "free preview" link.)

And of course you are welcome to monitor your child's play at the university and join in. Have fun at college!