#innergypsy

2019! It’s finally here, the last year before a new decade! And let’s face it every year we set out with new resolutions, promises to ourself of how we can live our best lives and be the best version of ourselves. It’s easy to set resolutions that gain be unrealistic, and even though we have all the right intentions we kick ourselves once we’ve broken the promise we made to ourselves.

We promise to lose weight, eat better or sad more money. And feel guilty when we miss a day at the gym, eat a burger or buy the dress. So we fall off the band wagon and promise ourselves better next time.

Life isnt new year new me! It’s what will make me happy right now. Making sure you are healthy mentally and physically is more important than beating yourself up over one bump in the road. Life’s path isn’t straight. There are twists and turns and bumps along the way. And if we spend to much time focusing on that we miss the view and the bigger picture.

I look back on 2018 as the year that flew past me. I feel like I didn’t quiet achieve enough. That the holidays I promised to take myself on but never did, or the money I planned to save but ended up spending, wasn’t enough. But it’s time to take a second and realise that I may not have done things I originally planned, but I did some incredible things in the bigger picture. And now I can enjoy the view.

2019 IS the last year of this decade, so we need to make it count! Try and keep the promises you make yourself, but if you don’t.. it’s not worth beating yourself up over. It’s ok to go out, do the things you’ve been trying to. Spend your money cause experiences don’t always come around twice! Wear your heart on your sleeve. You only get one chance to say how you feel. Don’t be afraid or rejection... in any circumstance, it really is just an opportunity to grow and move onto being a better version of yourself!

Wishing everyone a great 2019... just have fun x

Keep dreaming,

Queen Dreamer

I recently watched a video about “how to survive a breakup” with Russell brand. In a nutshell he explained that the thing about breakups was accepting that the reality you built for your future with that person was over.

This is something that hit close to home for me. It made me realise that’s why I didn’t completely survive the end of my 5 year relationship.

I went through the motions. Shutting the feelings out, letting them all in at once, drinking until I was numb, a suicide attempt and unhealthily relying on the people around me as a crutch instead of working on myself to be better.

And it’s taken almost a year, but I can finally say I can see a future for just me.

I had to redefine myself. I wasn’t paired with that person anymore, and I had my own identity, I’d just forgotten what that was. The relationship you have with yourself sets the tone for all others. That was something I had to relearn.

A lot has happened in the last year, I’ve seen myself change and evolve. I’ve seen myself through heartache and kept moving forward. And even on the hardest days I just kept telling myself... life keeps going. Moment by moment you make it through the day. That day turns into a week. That week to a month, and then you look back and say “hey a months gone by” you may not feel any better, but life’s kept going, and you can either get through each moment or make the most of them. Work on yourself, make plans for yourself, take time out for yourself or just remember who you are right down to your core, without anyone else or any distractions.

Hey Dreamers,

Moving back in with mum! It’s that dreaded that sentence that at some point makes us feel a little less. Less independent, less adult-ish, and just less likely to have our shit together! It’s like a big kick in our gypsy nads! “You have to go back to your mum, you couldn’t make it by yourself. Back to the nest!” she sings dancing around my head. And unfortunately, I can’t just flick her out – that bitch rents that space for free!

I’m not as lucky as my inner gypsy that lives rent free. I live in the real world, I’ve got real bills. So, I’ve dragged myself back to the nest – but hey it really isn’t so bad, here’s why!

1.       FREE RENT! WIN

Thanks mum and dad for not renting my room to another struggling uni student, cause let’s face it that was a possibility. In some cases, coming back to the nest means a free place to rest your head in return for household chores. In other cases, some board is required for your stay, due to an increase in the grocery, electricity and internet bill! Because realistically we eat cause were bored and watch funny videos forever… and they say we have no culture!

2.       MY OWN SPACE!

My siblings have flown the coop too. Now it’s just us three in a big house, almost my own bathroom! I can decorate my room again, and I don’t have to label my food anymore, cause guess what, mum just buys in for me!

3.       Ok so I’m in my twenties and my mum still needs to know where I’m going and when I’ll be home. But hey, at least I know in the morning, after I’ve forgotten to put water and Panadol beside my bed – mums got my back!

I know it’s a small sacrifice to save a few dollars but look – free electricity, free wifi, free food, free washing/cleaning, bigger bathroom, your own room again, and dads always there when you start having car troubles. There’s an in-house nurse (mum), when we’re sick. On call best friend, cause she’s not like a regular mum, she’s a cool mum. And all the other benefits that come with having your family close by, (like being the first to know that over achieving cousin just messed up in some way). It’s always good to pitch in and do a load of washing, mop or shop… we don’t want to take advantage of our new nest. But all in all, “moving back into mum’s” isn’t always a disaster.

Shared housing is great. The more people, the cheaper the bills. But that’s it, its shared – and that means EVERYTHING! The bathroom, the kitchen, the living and the dining are all shared. Unless you live with a great group of people, and even then, sometimes you just need your own space. A space that isn’t your half-decorated room, because you can’t hang anything without approval!

Dreamers if you’re looking to save a little extra, and your parents have will take you back, it really isn’t the end of the world going back to the nest. Were still chasing that dream and letting our inner gypsy dance!

Keep dreaming,