#innerexploitations

The reason I don't talk you anymore is because after we dated, I could see clearly again. I cared about you so much and although I still do as a person, I see how toxic you were for me. You cheated, lied, and manipulated me like putty in your hands. You knew I had a big heart and I thought I could save you from your demons, but you wouldn't let them go. Now I see how wrong you were for me. I so badly wanted to be loved and thought you could help me see life in a positive light. I ended up not liking life at all, life was just a headache. Now that I have a friend who makes me enjoy life again, I really see it. We were not compatible and I forced it. Everyone around me could see it, and I'm glad they slapped some sense into me. The reason I don't talk to you anymore is because I see you unfiltered and real and it's not who I thought I saw initially. I'm sorry I couldn't be your superman, I hope someone else can be and I wish you the best.

I'm becoming obsessed with the show parks and recreation and I want a relationship that's as crazy and fun as April and Andy's. ❤️

I complimented a girl's hair yesterday, and we talked for a bit. I wasn't sure if it was my own anxiety of interacting with a stranger in an unprofessional environment, but it seemed uncomfortably long and I wondered why she was talking to me. Anyone else would of said, "thank you" and kept walking. Then, she asked for an exchanging of Facebook's and now we're friends. After we became friends, she told me about her fiancé. Maybe it was just in my search for an ulterior motive, but I almost thought she was trying to get jiggy with me and I found the whole situation awkward and confusing.

I always feel like moron, each day it's just something new added to the list.

I think I'm going to delete my online dating profiles. I'm not confident enough to talk about my life with strangers, besides tumblr is starting to consume me.

*gets attached to girls quickly because I clearly don't know what's good for me*