#godimdepressing

I always feel like moron, each day it's just something new added to the list.

It's so weird feeling ugly and comparing yourself to a time in your life when you KNEW you looked pretty. I have an average face, but carrying around extra weight on it takes it to a pretty tragic state. All my life, I was fat but also had to deal with being ugly, having messed up teeth, and bushy eyebrows (you know, before they were cool). When I finally lost weight senior year of high school, my face became "pretty" too. I waxed my eyebrows and had grown into my teeth. It was pretty much a Princess Diaries makeover moment. But now, I've gained so much weight and my skin is already starting to sag in weird places from aging. I've honestly felt disgusting walking around these past few weeks and even embarrassed that all the people I've interacted with have had to look at me. That's completely fucked up, I know. But here I am at 2 am staring at my reflection in the mirror... and hating it.