#indybaggins

PAIN

“But he can’t tell them. How could he explain that he’s grieving a living person?”

MORE PAIN

“How could we be friends? After everything?”

EVEN MORE PAIN

“I gave years and you gave years/ and we're still waiting/ paying in bits of who we could have been.”

EXCRUCIATING

“Who am I, to you? Who are you to me?”

DEVASTATING

Word count: 16,605 Chapters: 7/7 Fandom: Sherlock (TV) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Sherlock Holmes/John Watson, Sherlock Holmes/OMCs Characters: John Watson, Sherlock Holmes Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Different First Meeting, Depressed John, Drug Addict Sherlock, Slut Sherlock, Anonymous Sex, Chemsex, Angst, Disability, Drugs, Dubious Consent, Hand Jobs, Blow Jobs, Anal Sex, Condoms, Group Sex, Self-Destruction, Loneliness, Falling In Love Summary:

John never learned how to do this here, in sordid London, where every bloke lines up in a queue of ads and everyone has someone else every night.

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Rec: Wow, this was not at all what I expected going into it. Given the premise of an alternate Johnlock meeting with lots of promiscuous, anonymous sex and the general gist of the tags, I thought this was going to be a fun and filthy good time had by all. And while that’s true up to a certain point, it doesn’t even begin to get at what is really going on.

You know when you think you've read anything worth reading in the fandom and you're a bit jaded and disappointed by that? And you find something amazing that you've missed all along? That.