#imstillfighting

So over seven years ago I held a ceremony at Singleton Park to plant a cherry blossom tree 🌳🌸. Planting a tree was something I got to cross of my Bucket List... but I never expected to be here to see that tree grow. The ceremony we held was, in reality, a Pre-Funeral, as John Green calls them... after all, I said to my mum, why should you guys have all the fun without me 😂?! The ceremony itself was incredible, and incredibly beautiful. I treasure the memory of it ❤️ But the really incredible things is, seven years later, I’m still here. And in those seven years, both the tree and I have done an awful lot of growing. And I know that 16 year old Amy, the one who planted this tree whilst believing she’d never see it grow, would be so impressed by 23 year old Amy and her life. Feeling very blessed 💖 #iplantedatree #sevenyearslater #thetreeandihavebothdonealotofgrowing #imstillhere #imstillfighting #imstillive #16yearoldmewouldbeproud #andimpressed #blessed (at Singleton Park)

So over seven years ago I held a ceremony at Singleton Park to plant a cherry blossom tree 🌳🌸. Planting a tree was something I got to cross of my Bucket List... but I never expected to be here to see that tree grow. The ceremony we held was, in reality, a Pre-Funeral, as John Green calls them... after all, I said to my mum, why should you guys have all the fun without me 😂?! The ceremony itself was incredible, and incredibly beautiful. I treasure the memory of it ❤️ But the really incredible things is, seven years later, I’m still here. And in those seven years, both the tree and I have done an awful lot of growing. And I know that 16 year old Amy, the one who planted this tree whilst believing she’d never see it grow, would be so impressed by 23 year old Amy and her life. Feeling very blessed 💖 #iplantedatree #sevenyearslater #thetreeandihavebothdonealotofgrowing #imstillhere #imstillfighting #imstillive #16yearoldmewouldbeproud #andimpressed #blessed (at Singleton Park)

So over seven years ago I held a ceremony at Singleton Park to plant a cherry blossom tree 🌳🌸. Planting a tree was something I got to cross of my Bucket List... but I never expected to be here to see that tree grow. The ceremony we held was, in reality, a Pre-Funeral, as John Green calls them... after all, I said to my mum, why should you guys have all the fun without me 😂?! The ceremony itself was incredible, and incredibly beautiful. I treasure the memory of it ❤️ But the really incredible things is, seven years later, I’m still here. And in those seven years, both the tree and I have done an awful lot of growing. And I know that 16 year old Amy, the one who planted this tree whilst believing she’d never see it grow, would be so impressed by 23 year old Amy and her life. Feeling very blessed 💖 #iplantedatree #sevenyearslater #thetreeandihavebothdonealotofgrowing #imstillhere #imstillfighting #imstillive #16yearoldmewouldbeproud #andimpressed #blessed (at Singleton Park)

#bueno #imstillfighting #porquecoño

And I want it, I want my life so bad.

I can't believe that it is over. I know that I have a week till I talk to him again, but I think he is set on having this break. People fight for what they want and it seems like he is giving up. I look back at all the things that he wrote about not ever wanting to lose me. This wonderful guy was able to break through my walls from such a great distance. I don't regret anything. But never again will I do a long distance relationship. Not with anyone else. I am still love with him (even though I am furious), and he said he is still in love with me. He just wants us to get our shit together before we continue on being together. I know that this is coming from a good place, but this shit just sucks overall