#imclingy

So, you finally bought your ticket. I'm really happy that you did and that it's final. I'm just a little meh because you are going to be spending the night at your friend's house. I don't want to be a selfish and controlling boyfriend and don't want you to get mad at me for my opinion so I'm forced to say yes. The reason why I don't want you to go is because 1)I have terrible trust issues. I trust you completely but I don't trust other people. 2) I want you all to myself. 3) I want to be with you as much as I can before we have to face the time that we do for the next year and a half. 4) I'm very greedy when it comes to you.  Honestly, the only reasons why I am saying yes is because 1) I don't want you to get mad at me if I say no. 2) I want you to be happy. 3) And I just don't want to argue about it. Honestly, if you do sleep over, I reeeaaalllllllyyyy don't want to make two trips back because I want to be as conservative with money as I possibly can and I don't want to spend a single night without you while you're here in the east coast. I would rather just suffer the awkwardness with being with your friends and the outsider of the group because I usually always am. *Sigh* this is just me being selfish. I'm sorry, love, I don't mean to be. It's just a natural reaction I suppose :| I love you so much and I just want you to be happy, despite my feelings on this...

So this is how it feels when I fall asleep on him before we have our goodnight skype/facetime seshh....I would call him again but that baby needs his sleep. I do meese him though...ok time for me to sleep. Niiiightt

Damn, he means the world to me. I don't know if he knows it but I'd die for him. 3 months in 2 weeks. I've never had a relationship that lasted that long unless breaking up and getting back together counts. But this one is endless. I'm in love. A 14 year old in love. My feelings for him grow each and every day. He was my christmas present and it's the best present I could have ever gotten. He's perfect. He's literally everything I ever looked for. He understands, hes into the same music as I am, he treats me right, he loves me, he's mine. I love you.